>having a perfectly good day
>suddenly remeber something autistic I did 3 years ago and want to die
>Its even got to the point where whenever this happens I start punching myself
Any other anons feel this feel
Most certainly I have felt the phantom pain of my past errors but to help I just think about the fact that it has no meaningful affect on anything at all so I have no reason to care
Your situation sounds similar but if it has had lasting effect then hitting your self about it makes things only worse so pls stap
I bite whatever flesh I can find on my arms and rip my hair.
I also literally autistically screech.
I would make a vocaroo but my housemates are sleeping and I can't do it quietly.
I don't do this in public, but the tantrum is more violent the longer that I have to hold it in.