Ready for some depressing thoughts? Okay, here we go. I'm a disabled vet who is living pretty much the NEET life these days. I can't for the life of me find a girlfriend because my looks are painfully average and my mind is beyond damaged. I can seem normal for a five minute conversation, but that's on a good day. And I'm tired of wearing this fucking mask all the time. I'm tired of people being put off by me at best and downright scared of me for no reason at worst. My gods, I wish that I would have lost a leg in the war instead of my mind. And if I did have to, I wish I would have lost it in WWII or the war against the Barbary Pirates. That would have been worth it. Not that bullshit in Iraq. I'm tired of feeling guilty for surviving and questioning my actions even though they were not my decisions to make at the time. I know we love to hate on normalfags here, but fucks sake, I envy them. I wish I could even pretend to be one.
>>38359103
Go speak to the VA.
>>38359168
I have. I am 60% disabled by their count and I was talking to a therapist for a while. But she just started getting sick before every appointment and stopped returning my calls. I'm about to request a new one. But this really doesn't help with my abandonment issues at all. I really wish she would have just been open about not wanting to continue seeing me and recommended another doc.
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Its okay man. I know exactly how you feel. I had thought about joining the military just so i can get killed in the middle east so my family can get the benefits. The wars fought today are without chivalry and honour. Though i cant know exactly your pain just know that its not pity you're getting. Its empathy.
What do you have, PTSD? I have a sorta friend that served in Iraq, he never told me much about it but he has a dead stare and seems unstable. Otherwise a cool guy for the most part