americans, why do people mess with the quiet white kid of class?

Because people are nothing but creatures driven by animalistic urges.
It's why i've given up on society. I know i'm driven by these urges too because all this social isolation and anger really takes a toll.
Chest tightness, dizziness, inability to focus, headaches. And i know its emotional because i've taken every step possible to make sure i'm physically healthy.
It only grows stronger though.

There's only two possible choices if this continues. Either i actually do something stupid that will ruin my life and possibly the lifes of people around me, or i go into substance abuse which will ruin only my life.
And since i'm 25+, i've already lost hope of any other outcome.

>>38325782
Maybe you could make friends through drugs anon

I used to be a popular kid in elementary and middle school, then some shit happening in my life changed me, and ended up developing depression and severe social anxiety in high school. I think it was payback for bullying so many kids in jr high and middleschool, I really tormented some of the corner kids.

Freshman year for me I really got a taste of my own medicine, and realized what I did. Luckily the rest of highschool most people matured and stopped messing with me, and I was kind of just a ghost.

Fuck, no one really knows how it feels to be bullied as the outcast, I hate kids and preteens. They are fucking toxic and cannibalistic

>>38325782
wtf are you me (soon to be 22)