When you realize you're a robot by choice and not because you have to be
I have been a loner that doesn't let anyone in or tell anyone how I truly feel for so long I dont know how to be anything else. I think I want nice things like a gf and to be less nervous around others but I dont want to put in the work to get there not to mention trying new things cause me so much stress. I always feel like I'm going to fail or that Im not doing good fast enough. I've had this mindset for so long I dont know if I want to leave it