Who here still thinks about a girl they were with years ago whose

>>38300588
Time to kill myself isn't it anon?

I had a girl I dated for 2 years and had to move away. The worst possible personality 1/10 but a 10/10 in looks. Only give one because she likes video games and anime so why not go through her shit she might change right??

Skype her every night everything is good and I'll do frequent visits out of state to see her. She wouldn't stop messaging me and being clingy af and always thinking I'm with other people (what the fuck I'm a beta how the fuck are you even with me)

Childhood friend asks me to hangout we haven't seen eachother in a few months.

Picks me up and drives me to a Walmart parking lot and said he had something he had to tell me.

>thinking he was going to come out of the closet but everyone knew already he was bi

He sits there for a good 2 minutes and packs a bowl and it's silent. He tells me to hit it right quick, he'll yeah >takes a big puff.
Then he says
>I Skyped your girlfriend and we both masturbated on cam

I sit there

Sit there

Tells me he is sorry and that she would always tell him stories of her going out with friends and fucking people for money and free drugs

He then said he was going to take me home.

The most akward silence for the whole ride.

Fucking devisated and cried the whole ride, I did everything for her and loved her.

Next day go to his car and keyed it and poured sugar into his gas tank.

Kept the laptop the ex gave me and didn't delete all the nudes and videos she gave me and show every single one of my friends and give them to all of them.

Still to this day I miss her and wish I was better looking etc. I dream of her from time to time and still miss her even from how she treated me. And nothing will compare to her and I know every person I date I will compare to her and know I won't get anyone that hot again

>>38300995
>Still to this day I miss her and wish I was better looking etc. I dream of her from time to time and still miss her even from how she treated me. And nothing will compare to her and I know every person I date I will compare to her and know I won't get anyone that hot again

>tfw still dream brutally sad dreams from time to time where you meet her again somewhere and she's so cold and distant and wants nothing to do with you and you just want to hold her and feel like love's possible again

I want to die

>>38301100
Trust me I want to die too