>start to gain some self confidence at work
>witness a normie talk to another normie like it's the easiest thing ever
>realize I'm living in a completely different world than they are
>small talk is painful
>I've already alienated myself from my co-workers by not talking to them
>they think I'm arrogant and I have descended to pariah status
>sometimes I'll try and greet one of my co-workers, other times I feel too much like shit to say anything at all
>this infuriates and confuses them because apparently I need to say "hello" to EVERYONE, EVERY DAY or apparently that means I hate them
>tfw come home completely drained from all the social interaction (even if I barely spoke, just being NEAR people stresses me out)
I've been doing this for 10 years and it hasn't gotten easier, in fact it has only gotten harder.
Stay the fuck out of retail my fellow spergs, its like an extension of high school, socially.
>>38274501
Yeah it fucking sucks. I wish I could just stay home and play video games. I'm too delicate for this world. I hope I die in my sleep.
>>38274528
I just wish I had the foresight to have gotten a career in something where I could work alone.
Too bad I figured out that I have the autism only a year ago, until then I just thought I was a naturally terrible person (I guess I still am but I feel like I have an excuse for it now)
I don't wanna hole up in my apartment and play vidya for the rest of my life, I want to produce something, I want to be creative. But I feel like I spend so much time recovering from my average day at work that I can't do anything I'd like to do.
Being surrounded by normies at least 5 days a week for 8 hours at a time really hammers home just how "different" you are, especially once you start to really scrutinize their interactions with each other and compare how they interact (or don't) with you.