When did you realize you were going to die unhappy, anon? Happened when I finally stopped denying that I was only good at useless shit that I hated.
I don't relly know, the idea started to come and everyday is stronger and stronger.
Now I'm just letting my life collapse, avoiding people and distancing with my family so my immitent suicide doesn't come as a surprise.
Or at least that's how I see it.