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>be me, 15yr old hikki >crazy depression, suicidal thoughts

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>be me, 15yr old hikki
>crazy depression, suicidal thoughts on daily basis, fat, ugly... want to die
>no social skills
>autistically good at programming though (frontend, backend, web, everything)
>start a few websites and use google adsense (with a fake social security number, because under 18) to start making money
>start making pretty good money, not as depressed anymore. no living expenses so I'm just saving

>turn 16
>start to lose weight, because depression is getting manageable. Still an outcast at school, still don't give a fuck.
>learn about bitcoin while trying to find out how to buy drugs online (needed Accutane for fucked up face)
>see the value of bitcoin while it was still $5.
>buy a shitload of bitcoin with my earnings from adsense.
>continue to lose weight...

>turn 17...
>looking pretty good. I mean, acne is still there but I'm a normal weight and more confident...
>making really good money from ventures... like 50k/yr now in highschool
>still suck socially, probably on the spectrum
>don't care about school, just get good enough grades so I can get a diploma.
>year ends, I start summer break
>bitcoin starts to take off...
>fuck, I'm worth like 100k now...
>don't sell... spend all summer doing drugs because I have nothing else to do

>turn 18
>senior year of highschool... fuck yeah
>socially infamous because people found out about how much money I had
>still suck socially
>show up to every class high, drunk and on a cocktail of uppers and downers
>no one gives a shit
>depressed as hell, want to kill myself on a daily basis because I can't maintain healthy relationships
>give up on life... go hard on the drugs
>almost the end of the school year
>become millionaire from cryptocurrency holdings
>holyfuck.jpg
>still depressed
>still want to kill myself

>three years of depression
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2016
>re-enroll in college
>start college
>surprisingly not horrible socially
>no one knows who I am
>I'm normal... everyone thinks I'm normal
>maintain this facade for a semester
>finish semester with straight A's

>2017
>not really depressed anymore, have friends
>still not entirely normal, but passable 99% of the time
>work on social skills more
>semester ends

>work on social skills over the summer

>start summer semester
>talk to people, be normal
>get to know classmates

>couple weeks in I'm hanging out with a friend on campus
>a guy I know walks up and starts talking to me
>another group walks up and one of them starts talking to me too
>friend tells me that I know a lot of people

>mfw I'm actually normal and popular
>mfw people actually like me
>mfw no one suspects I have autism
>mfw I'm actually a functional human and no longer a robot
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So get out.
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I'm genuinely happy for you. It's nice when someone is struggling and improves
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>>38266577
Nice story OP, that was nice to read
>>
I have a story like that, but I'm still like in the middle.

>be me
>11 year old (or whatever 7th grade is)
>everybody hates me
>to be fair, I've always been an annoying loudmouth
>leave school to do online school
>remain social outcast, but don't have to deal with people hating me
>ff to 13
>parents leave the Jehovah's Witnesses (which is part of the reason I was so weird)
>leave with them, thank fuck I don't have to do that anymore
>ff to 14
>mom decides to become Catholic
>our family is atheist sort of at that point
>dad starts to go to Mass with my mom
>becomes Catholic
>all my brothers decide to become Catholic
>ff to 16
>they all get baptized
>I don't, but I go to Easter Vigil to hold my newborn brother
>start to dig it
>want to become Catholic
>start on path to Catholicism
>meanwhile, get a job at Little Caesars
>balloon up to 235 pounds (I've always been kind of fat)
>feelsbadman.jpg
>decide to actually do something for once
>stop eating sugary foods
>start losing weight
>ff to 17
>get baptized with my newborn sister (the only girl)
>quit the LC job (I was a supervisor but they were paying me minimum and not giving a fuck about my schedule)
>at this point I'm 190
>get a job as a courtesy clerk at Albertsons
>stop wanking because Catholic
>become counselor for a Catholic camp
>meet great people there, actually enjoy social life for once
>due to courtesy clerk job, go down to 170 pounds
>ff to now
>18
>waiting for summer to end so I can join the Navy
>have friends
>have social skills
>look half decent (except for excess skin, it sucks but I'm sure it'll go away eventually. Or not.)
From robot to normie.
>>
>autistically good at programming
>got the good type of autism
Yes, yes, well done. You were bound to succeed from the start. This is a place for the bad type of autism though, you have no business being here.
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>>38267004

good shit man. I know it took me what seemed like a lifetime, but getting my shit together was/is so worth. Can't even begin to tell you how good it feels to be normal.

I was never military, but I've heard the military is a great place to develop social skills. Lifelong friends are made in basic training.

anyways, congrats man, it sounds like you've come a long way
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