Anyone else too embarrassed to live? I am aware that I have

Your family and classmates have their own lives to think about. I guarantee they are not worrying about you as much as you think. They are NOT thinking about you and that's what's even sadder in my opinion. You're on your own if you want to improve your life, you always were, so you better start working on something now and stick with it cause the time is flying by buddy.

>>38259206
I can relate, my life especially for at least couple of months was a constant trail of embarassement that left me in a state of constant depression with no hope for a better tomorrow.

>>38259272

> I guarantee they are not worrying about you as much as you think.
That's what everyone tells me and I agree. They are not thinking about me. But when we do meet, they are thinking about me and that's when I feel uncomfortable. If there was a guarantee in my life that I would never run into them again, it would be better. Just the thought of knowing that I could run into one of them brings me down.

>cause the time is flying by buddy.
I know and it's giving me painful despair and anxiety. I already think I'm too far gone (almost 10 years of NEET).

>>38259413

What type of embarrassment?

>>38259476

People will only look down on you for a few moments. "Glad at least I'm not that loser" they'll say and then forget about you.

>I know and it's giving me painful despair and anxiety. I already think I'm too far gone (almost 10 years of NEET).

Just pick something autistic that you can devote yourself to becoming an expert at (10,000 hours). Programming, drawing, music, whatever. That way you have something you are devoted to and can profit off one day.

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i don't give a shit about 'em. I live my own life.

>>38259597

>becoming an expert at
It's like you're ticking every anxiety box I have.
Not being a master of anything is in my top reasons I feel like I failed at life. I am too retarded now to learn new things. My short term memory (possibly long term too) is fried from years of neglect.

Everything I do is complain. God I'm so pathetic.

>>38259652

Not giving a shit about them is understandable. Neither do I in a way. But what gets me, and I'm wondering how it doesn't get you, is that it's actively reminding you of how much of a failure you are. Assuming you consider yourself a failure.

>>38259690
>Not being a master of anything is in my top reasons I feel like I failed at life. I am too retarded now to learn new things. My short term memory (possibly long term too) is fried from years of neglect.

Then get your health in shape. Give yourself a year or however long it takes to get your health in top form. Learn about nutrition and exercise. Take supplements like fish oil. Go running, get sunlight and vitamin d every day.

Once you've got your health up to speed, start studying and working.