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who here /defective/
when i browsed 4chan when i was younger i used to laugh uncontrollably enough so that when i glanced out the window and grimaced at either the pitch black night or the seeping morning light i felt as if i could do it, and be alone and enjoy it, with my "friends" on 4chan. but now theres nothing, a hollow emptiness and bland miasma of regret over all of my memories if you cold even call that, some semblance of an existence. the problem is the ale yellow or blue glow of each board is the only thing really familiar to me anymore, when your only real emotion is nostalgia or inertia you'll do anything to preserve even a fleeting moment of it.
my problem is that my problem isnt fixable, if i could wake up tommorow and get my life on track it still wouldn't help me because im broken internally, there is something defective, one day something switched within me and i just sat down and never got up. no matter where i go, who i talk to , what i do im still stuck right here at my desk staring at this screen alone again.
but a gf wouldn't fix that, it doesnt matter what anyone tells me, i feel lonelier the more people there are around me, someone telling me they love me every night wouldn't stop me from drawing my curtains and staring out the window again at the night time. i dont wanna start again, i dont wanna die, i dont think i even want something different from this and thats whats wrong with me, i wouldn't take a chance of happiness even i was given it.
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You think way too much and are trying to be deep on a japanese tentacle porn fetish forum. You're a man, do whatever the fuck you want. You get one life. Do you think your father or his father would sit and complain about useless crap, or would they just get it done. A lot of you are emotional like women, which is why you don't get any.
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It sounds like you have clinical depression, I know that feel. The problem for me was that I didn't have any goals or dreams, I'd recommend trying to find an actual hobby that isn't browsing trap threads on 4chan. At the very least you should try getting some prozac and seeing if that helps you
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the thing is i dont really feel sad or depressed just kind of indifferent to everything, and im pretty sure prozac or any other treatment just magnifies that effect, it makes you less unhappy but also makes you less happy.
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