I can't deal with this any more. I tried and it only made

What is wrong OP? Why do you want to die so badly?

i feel u i just dont care anymore

>>38236967

ive had everything in life but i cant handle it and now ive tried again and im failing and i just dont know i never asked for this how is one supposed to live reluctantly when everything is a chore and when one's personality is rotten and cynical and lost

>>38237268
I wish I knew the answer. I'd tell you if I did.

I think that suicide is not the getaway. Go and help your local pet rescue, go on the world and make something for others. I'm suicidial myself but I think that if I cross the bridge of no turning back I would make something for the world. We're created to do something with our life, because when we live we take so many Power from the universe. Instead of killing yourself go and Save Life, not for you, but because why not.

>>38237309

that's not how it works. you're like those people that say "go take a load have sex with prostitutes drive fast cars etc". if people were in the mood for that, they wouldn't be where they are right now.
i also lack guidance. maybe i could force myself to do that, but there is no guidance. i am a failed human being, i cant do anything without being guided on rails. i am now for the first time in almost 30 years dealing with not having things go my way by pure luck and i cannot deal with it.

Life isn't supposed to be a chore, it's supposed to be effortless effort, that is you should naturally put effort into certain things.

Stop going against nature, relax inside your own body, take a nap and stop thinking, God didn't make anything broken, each individual is suited to a particular environment, you need to stop trying to succeed as the person you want to be and relax, no amount of success is going to change your inherent biological nature, that is eating sleeping and resting, if that's all you can do at a given time that's all you can do, don't force change, allow it to come when you feel ready, don't intellectualize your pursuits or desires otherwise they'll become sour and a burden to carry like your life right now.

Let your body guide you