I've realized that I literally can't imagine loving

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I've realized that I literally can't imagine loving any girl in particular. I can think a girl looks cute and has a good personality (usually a 2D girl, at that), but when I try to think about a relationship with her, I just imagine I would get sick of her and she would get sick of me very quickly because we wouldn't have enough in common. I don't feel love or deep attraction, I feel utter hollowness. This has also made me realize my own utter valuelessness. Maybe I just haven't closely interacted with enough people in my life, but I have a lot of trouble imagining how you can look at someone else and want to be with them, and I mean not just as a readily available option, but because you really believe that they are perfect for you. How can people be okay with settling out of convenience? How can they live with that and say and think or at least pretend they love someone else? Of all the people out there, and with how difficult it can be to truly relate, how can you choose any one person to be with except out of convenience or extreme luck?

This is what makes me feel that romantic love as a concept is an absolute mistake, but it's an ideal I can't stop wanting anyway.