>Tfw i have been started to understand less and less what

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I feel you anon, I rarely come here anymore its gotten so bad.

What's on your mind? I'm currently trying to psyche myself up to walk over to the supermarket to get food.

>>38203227
Yes, it has become lonely.
The fact that i could let people hear my voice and at least feel their physical warmness its bad.
But now i cant even connect by typing and reading text on a cold machine

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>>38203285
I skipped work today, none of my "friendly coworkers" have called me, even thought i personally called every single one when they dont come to work, asking if they were okay and stuff. I had to call my boss and he replied with "thats 25 bucks less for you, get to work".
Ive been not sleeping enough, and my heart has started beating faster than usual and that worries me.
I have wrecked varius items on my house, and i have not cleaned it.
>>38203227
Also, have a asuka

>>38203096
It's an evolution, Anon. It started with just being original, and fuckers going 'Gentlemen!' to dodge the bot. Then it became feels, and like a game of telephone, robot went from meaning the system of which unoriginal posts are blocked, to the term of a societal reject/hater.
Now, like future generations rebelling from those of the past, it is now one big joke on everything robots are, with endless cuck threads. The board has changed, and sadly, it isn't enjoyable for any group anymore aside from people who like a cheap laugh with stale bait. /b/ 2.0
All of the internet groups I enjoyed for one reason or another always degraded and rotted away. If it's a small enough community and I'm high enough on the food chain, I keep it alive with chemo as long as possible, but cancer and entropy always win. You just gotta move, man, find somewhere else.
>tfw one day cancer will consume all of the internet, if it hasn't already
>when that day comes, there will be nowhere left to run

>>38203300
insecam, feel threads, mutual distaste for normies. there so many normie, trap, fembot and polfags now.

>>38203418
>Move on
Thats the idea, but that will be just running away, and, as life is getting more and more connected and wired, it will be litteraly having no escape, neither from reality.
Eventually, there will be a wall, an unpassable one. I dont know what will happen to humans, it really makes me wonder.
Maybe slavery in a uncommon way

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>>38203357
sounds like a shitty situation. I hope things get better for you anon, we're all gonna make it.

>>38203425
Mostly share the pain somehow or another, with some laughs at the middle too. Nowdays its just Porn, disgusting /b/ tier greentext, and literal people saying that "you just have to be yourself, bro" and having everything served to them in a silver plate and shoving all that into our faces

>>38203514
Thank you mister, you did a good thing today, i hope that someone will do another good thing for you

And the worse thing, is that also everybody instead of posting content is just having reddit tier "i-have-been-longer-here-that-you-do" discussions, which is neither my point, im just complaining about the low quality that has arrived, not the new people that has also arrived

>>38203485
I agree, my man.
>tfw lucid dreaming, writing, and daydreaming are my only escapes now
>down from literally dozens when I was a kid
>lucid dreaming is sporadic at best, and can only be done when sleeping
>writing is hard af and only comes with inspiration that's rare
>daydreaming brings on negative feels if overdone
>almost done catching up on all favorite TV
I'm approaching the wall, and unlike slowly closing it around myself Pink Floyd style, I'm speeding towards it at 200mph.

>>38203606
Yeah, but even experiencing all that, that is intresting, but i find the pleasure speaking about it that does not look like im sick in the head and embrace it, after all, even thought all the "antisocial" memes i tried, i cant avoid but feeling good when some people at least talk to me. I feel so much joy, its like a reminder that i am alive and there is a reason about my existence

Nothing anymore, not even "unique" things like that faggot jacking off to his depressed roommate, or that other one that got doxxed during christmas/new year and forced to apologize

>>38203644
Oh I agree the experience is interesting, in the end experience and memory is all we got. Still, the panic arises when the experiences start to dwindle. I hope you find somewhere else you can go, just like how I hope I find something to fill the gaps where old hobbies used to be.
Maybe we really will all make it, at least I want us to.

>>38203096
Relating to people is a meme, OP. I think people just convince themselves they can relate to others. Somehow it makes them feel better if they believe the lie.

I've never understood people, and I never will; their desire for things like "love" and "companionship", the many other "feelings" that they claim to have, the way they react to things, etc. None of it makes sense.

They're just faking a bunch of things to make everything seem complex.

>>38203717
I hope, its just that ive been "making it" for a while now, i got a job, i pay my bills, i live alone and without worring anyone, but only survival is so shallow. Its either feeling like carrying a rock or feeling nothing cuz im on antidepressants, nothing intresting, not going alone to the cinema, or playing any sports, not going to the prostitutes, not driving.
I must be anoying you with my replies, hell, im such an inutile i can even have a long enough conversation with someone on 4chan. It used to be possible, thought

Remove phoneposters and you remove the problem desu. Anytime you see a bait/shitposting/gf begging/post yourself/anything fucking normie at all it's 100% some underage kid phoneposting.

>>38203755
I assume people are not that complex, but i still remember love from my mother, i still remember companionship of my friend back in 6th grade, i have a memory of some of that stuff, i was happy, it wasnt black and white, it was comfy, it felt good. i wish with all my heart to "fake" these things

>>38203836
I disagree, i look at stuff in my phone during breaks at work. Also, i believe its just another way of computer

>>38203859
It'd be fine to look, but stopping phones from posting would increase the quality of the whole site immediately.

>>38203096

part 1/2

>talked to several girls in 7-8th grade
>would even sext a couple during 7-8th grade
>one especially throughout 7-8th grade after finding her on myspace
>first kiss, hand hold and gf in 8th grade
>first boob/nipple touched in 8th grade
>first received offers* - 2 (two)for a blowjob
>did it out of nowhere and she smiled after
>first received* confession in 8th grade by bullied brunette skinny kind qt
>didn't accept/decline/don't remember
>first handjob/blowjob/fingering/boob suck by a DD gril in 8th grade summer despite smol benis
>dated several girls in high school and repeat several of things above
>lost virginity at 14 (although immediately after the comedown felt regret and said out loud i shouldn't have done it)
>several other grils in high school showed interest but didn't act
>a fairly presumed opportunity , but not acted upon, for a threesome with 2 qt tomboys, one tall with DDs in HS and the other with short hair
>first/most drug experience in HS
>first lapdance i HS
>a DD girl sat on my lap i HS
>'friends' in HS
>"lost" those 'friends' in HS after picking up new """friends""" who were casually familiar with drugs
>generally degenerate in HS
>had sex with one other girl more than several times + exhibitionism
>she was a freshman and i a sophomore then
>never kissed her and virtually blowjobs on tap
>was probably "in love with me" but i pulled a chad move by completing rejecting her ideal of our activities to be inside a relationship consequentially warping her view of men and having placed potentially irreversible trauma in her
>had sex once more with her in my junior or senior year (last time ive had sex)

>>38203889
Well thats considerable, i still didnt look at the facts of it but i think mods should seriusly consider it.

>>38203898
well idk what that has to do exactly with this thread, but continue i guess

>>38203800
>annoying
>tfw I worry that I might end up annoying some faggot with my replies, so I take the first exit I see in a conversation
>also to avoid it turning into a circlejerk
Still, the board is shit now, so who cares anyway. And yeah, I fear the survival rat race. The 8 hours of work that blink by in seconds, only for you to realize that if you didn't have that, you'd be bored for 16+ hours, not only the 5 or so of free hours you get at home before bed and chores.
No wonder people turn to drugs, when normal brain reactions grow so weak in modern, sterilized society.

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>>38203898
>fast forward 2017
>didn't graduate HS
>neet 3 years now
>hikki 2 years
>early 20s depressed with undiagnosed mental/social/emotional dysfunctionality
>hindsight wish I just kept to myself and played video games
>wish i got into anime sooner
>wish i wasn't easily susceptible to peer pressure and influence
>tfw most of all I wish i was a KHV with 0 experience in any shape or form with a irl gril
>tfw i wonder whether the early influences curbed me to a different timeline and buttefly affected me
>tfw looking back at where ive been and where i am now i just want to be a robot
>never will be one
>leave my old self and live as though none of it happened
>feel like im in the mindset of a general me that is the center of all my timelines and since i lived this reality with this specific timeline i can only stare at this past and move on
>now in tight knit discord group
>1 year anniversary of my joining coming up soon
>they hold a general disliking for anyone with experience of the opposite sex
>they probably believe im a KHV hikki neet loser (loser in a neutral sense since we all openly acknowledge we're below what would be perceived as normal)
>tfw can start anew with these new friends
>will let them breathe life into new even worse me
>will let my old self pale and bury beneath new memories of a life i could habe lived and am choosing to do so now while i can
>planning to mever tell them and die this way
>tfw this is lying and i have done this my whole life
>tfw i dont deserver them at all
>tfw i am out of place because there are legitimate members of the group who are KHV and lives are purely bideo games anime and 4chan related culture
>tfw experienced pool closing in 06 but not while aware of 4chan but because was unironically on habbo at the time as a child
>only began browsing 4chan in may 2015
>tfw did so after a few months after discovering reddit for the first time
>tfw wear robo title anyway

tell me anons, is there a place for me?

>>38203950
Honestly it seems like you feel a lot of guilt or shame in your past actions and you truly want to be a robot
You may never be able to be a true robot but you can still enjoy a comfy robot life style of vidya and anime c:

>>38203950
See its not your fault anon, you are a victim of the bullshit they throwed in your mouth, it is stupid to judge if the person "has not getting laid" or if it had success in their past, this place also got infected when we tried to point eachother because of the influx of shit content, if you are damaged, and you can understand the ways of this board without triyng to be superior to your robot fellows, you pretty much are fit for here

>>38203930
But you see, circlejerking is a main part of normal relantioships nowdays. Its something people never get tired of, and maybe one of the reasons i dont have real relationships with people

>>38204074
I've had some online buddies for 8 years that LIVE to disagree with me. The minute I do something they dislike, BAM! It honestly feels like 4chan at its worst sometimes, but it's all a laugh. Fuck people who bitch out and never talk to you if you have the audacity to offend them, they can go attend a social justice rally.

>>38204126
Fuck yeah i really feel you, that also gets me, nowdays you can disagree with people both AFK and fucking inside of 4chan, dontcha dare to say trump/hitler/whatever-jackass is wrong because the fucking /pol/ spamers are up your ass, fucking same shit with people at society, you cant say nothing bad about obama/clinton/whatver.jackass because you will get automatically rejected.
TWO FUCKING WAYS TO TAKE IT UP YOUR ASS BASICALLY

Are there any alternatives to /r9k/ where a bunch of lonely guys can hang out and be free of /b/, /pol/ and porn shitposts? If not, maybe we should make a general for that.

>>38204412
Wizardchan, or maybe Lainchan if you can get into the cyberpunk. Im lazy to go to the 8 or learn japanese in order to get into 2

>>38203096
I have things to do, so don't come here much

>>38204461
Wizardchan is pretty hardcore and 8's r9k is hella slow. Never heard of Lainchan. Is the board /r/ equivalent to /r9k/? I still might give 8 and lain a try though. Not like I have much free time.

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>>38204037
i do, i sometimes wonder if the true robo path was stolen from me or am i wholely resposible cor not habing enough will to habe said no in my early days. i will enjoy the comfy robot lifestyle, although my mana isn't as pure as some it flows nonetheless
>>38204043
thanks anon, it feels oddly satisfying to come here despite different backgrounds between robos cybos and others like me and fit in
feels breddy gud

>>38204924
If you think wizard is hardcore, then maybe you should be carful in lainchan