>have danced in my bedroom in the mirror for 10 years and

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>you can dance if you want to, anon.
>you can leave your friends behind.

>>38170817
I have a bronze LoL account that I play horribly on with my friends, and a plat one I play with a group of people I met through the game.

>>38170872
i don't know what any of that shit means

I like to stick a novelty miniature baseball bat up my butt when I jack it to the gay male section on literotica

>>38171092
It means I'm good at league of legends but I play shitty with my friends.

>>38171468
this thread is basically about hiding your power level, then.

OP, you da bestestest

>>38171468
Why don't you just show them your skill? I mean, they'd respect and admire you more.

>>38172339
because hiding your power level is important.

I'm a guitarist songwriter and performer that emerges out of his cave very rarely, reactivating long-lost social media accounts to quick gains in momentum and prestige because I invented my own blues-based playing style and writing subgenre with a voice that's been turning heads since I stumbled upon it in some random audition when I was 17. Every time I emerge I get a bunch of offers and people that try to leverage it, but so far I haven't been satisfied with my technical ability enough to fully leave my NEETdom writing hermitage.

I'll pop into an open mic once a year or so just to see if I still stand out and every time I get pretty crazy results. It's strange

But OP I used to be exactly the same before I started into guitar. I'm pretty sure that's how my whole thing started tbqh. Used to practice secretly in my bedroom until this one school dance + everyone realized I was talented and shit; all that fuckin female attention-- never danced in public again

>>38170872
This is fucking cool. Something about being a savant without people knowing about it always has been "it" for me.

>>38172695
Show us your songs anon

>>38172808
no faggot, you don't ask anons for their songs. they post them if they want to. i hate that shit.

>>38170872
this is cool original

>>38172856
I think you made up your first post

>made 17 tutorials in youtube on how to use 3D applications on various difficulty levels
>writing my own guitar music, but nothing complete. just arpeggios and progressions

screaming. I am unironically quite talented at it but as i will probably never be in a band anymore i have no chance to showcase it.
and playing bass(or pedals) as my group was disbanded a while ago

>>38172856
then post a quick improv showing off your style

>>38172808
Aiight this is a first take track from an experimental demo I wrote (one of the first songs I wrote with the playing style c. 2014/2015) and recorded in this dude's studio. I played this really big local show at a famous venue + broke my low E string with my bare hand on the first song. Wanted to quit after the set went to shit right after (didn't have another guitar), my oneitis + writing partner was there + proceeded to start talking + flirting with other guys w/o acknowledging me at all so I basically disappeared

Then dude hits me up and wants me to record in his studio for dirt cheap so I record two or three experimental projects with various groups to see how actually packaging my sounds would work.

https://soundcloud.com/moshyells/moshh-circus-games-prod-jtm

Two of the three projects are up there. We didn't promote them; by the time they were finished they were old as fuck and very impractical to perform live. Leagues ahead now

>>38173131
Oh fun fact
My oneitis dropped in the studio when we were mastering this track; she heard it, realized it was about her and then proceeded to come home with me and fuck my brains out. Declared herself my girlfriend for a whole week before she started fucking other guys lmao

>>38173131
10/10 voice famalam

What's your secret

I suck at singing

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I have a strange feeling that OP is delusional. I can just picture some skinny-fat autist flailing his noodle arms about, doing spins and shit, all while thinking he's hot stuff. His parents most likely know that he "dances". Every now and then they peep through the crack in his door to see him having a zero gravity seizure for a quick laugh, but the temporary joy is rapidly consumed by an intense sadness and shame.

>>38173131
wait what this is actually good

>>38172695
Anon, if you've got an artistic gift, then hiding it from the world is doing everyone a disservice. You're wasting your chance to make it big, a chance to live a better and more fulfilling life. When you die, your biggest regret is going to be exactly what you're doing right now.

>>38173131
You're very good. You should just play for people randomly, casually. Play on the street, at parties, or at small venues, have fun with that shit.

>>38173131
This is bretty good actually. Just come out with it

>>38173131
fuck nigga. i love dat jack black vibe
how come you are in r9k?

>>38173131
wtf this is fucking amazing

>>38170817
Oh boy this was a nice laugh thanks anon

>>38173193
Join a choir in a white town with very few men and a competent singing director I guess? I was tone deaf for the first 16 years of my life and only played Runescape, browsed 4chan and regulared MMOs and final fantasy games until one summer I got bored and took my brother's guitar with me over to justinguitar.com. From there I decided to sign up for a guitar class with my school's choir director + she brainwashed me into joining her choirs from there b/c I was actually trying to understand things and practicing. A year in I went from being in one choir to three, and then decided to sing at a state school. Those motherfuckers grind you into the fucking ground

Beethoven's 9th in front of thousands of people, Carnegie hall performances-- they just materialise faster than you can imagine and in literally three to four years you're better than 90% of America, guaranteed

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>>38173294
This>>38173257 is the reason why I came back to /r9k/, I grew up on here a decade ago but dwindled to lurking when the music thing started actually being a thing. The fact that I was advertising at and surrounding myself with normies made the whole thing cringe as fuck. I made a fucking facebook page and an instagram and by the end of it I was drinking myself to death with vodka every night trying to forget I was alive, it kills you. The things you do because you're supposed to be popular? Why?

It has to be as natural as >>38173257 says, and being so young I had no idea how to even put it like that, despite how many people were around me trying to get me to do things. All in all I'm definitely here for a reason, but I'm working on it

>>38173405
Yeah man, don't let anyone tell you what you ought to be doing or how you ought to be doing it. Having a talent doesn't mean you owe anything to the world, it's there for you to enjoy at your own pace and discretion.

>>38173405
as fellow musician i can say that you have really nice funky chops. excellent voice. great lyrics
your stuff is already production ready.
this style is so new and refreshing it got me believing in indie again.
this is not your typical lazy indie stuff. you can tell there is alot of work behind it

>>38173405
what are your musical influences?

>>38173219
>>38173270
>>38173304
>>38173664
thank you anons. I stay trying to keep sane and not kill myself every day.

>>38173782
I appreciate it man, a lot of no-lifing the instrument like an autist, as an autist, locked in many a bedroom and studio. The music gets better every day but the goal line is to make something unfathomable and high-art tier. I doubt it's wholly possible but I listen to a lot of mozart and chopin and high culture music and try and see the dissonance between those sonic ideas and their themes/connotative associations and that of modern music's, through the form of blues scales (since I'm still a basic bitch). It'd be cool to replicate those values but through a medium and instrument that classically has never been associated with them, you know?

Pianos are so easy to invoke drama and granduer with, but guitars are these brutish basic bitch instruments that every college kid strums out weezer with. I wanna figure out how to break down those stereotypes but with a wall of sound that isn't THAT pretentious, and without compromising the plight to invoking as much command over artistic expression as people like Michaelangelo or Van Gogh or Debussy or the great minds of the renaissance etc.

>>38174015
Kanye west got me listening to music overall, and John mayer's discography alongside the baby steps in terms of catalog offered by Jason mraz, bruno mars, coldplay and taylor swift taught me all of the basics I needed. John Mayer was a great throughway b/c he's such a legend in blues and has played with all of the still living legends, so he transferred me into Clapton, BB King, SRV, Hendrix...all of the blues guys. Fell into James Brown and Prince, Michael Jackson, Amy winehouse, Frank sinatra-- basically any big name in western music from the past 100 years. I literally took a course at my university on Popular music in America with a big ass textbook detailing everything that has happened since slavery and got a 100 in it from no-lifing the course.

But really my biggest influences come down to what i was talking about here>>38174104 , the first time I listened to Mozart's Requiem I wanted to die because I couldn't fathom the sheer amount of ability and technical know-how represented, and I didn't want to ever again call myself an artist. Him and Bach and Chopin and tons of classical artists are probably my biggest inspirations because I genuinely don't believe music nowadays can honestly fuck with the sheer amount of divinity that's represented by their eras of composition. Music was the closest to "God" back then. When you hear those diapasons it's like angels literally could materialize in the room, and you don't get that with shitty modern rap music (besides a kanye track or two per album which is why he's one of my favorites).

I don't know man this is all I do, obsess over what more music can sound like, and I stress that my shit isn't even close so i retreat into hiding until it's better

>>38174104
I love everything about what you just said

>>38170817
I'm really good at soccer (football for the euros). Played 4 years of varsity in highschool as well as some college. I definitely dont look the type though. Tall (6,2), very skinny, shy, and people know I play lots of vidya. I like playing in lower league games now and carrying my team, rather than tryharding it in the top league. My stamina isnt what it used to be, but I can still juke normie kids in or fresh out of highschool who think they are hot shit.

>>38174306
can you recc me something with acoustic guitar to learn right now, you motivated me to pick up the guitar but I need new strings for my electric

>>38170817
I'm really good at having orgasms and I feel I could really make it big In the porn industry but only me and my gf know my secret. Sometimes I jack it to interracial and I think I'd be really good at cuck porn.

>>38174306
you should try combining rap with blues, this has been done very few times

>>38174306
Your story gives me hope for the future mate, I've never had any "talent" outside of being good at the sciences but your post is encouraging me to look into a creative outlet. Soldier on fellow robot.

I am really good at hearing women piss and shit from the guys bathroom. I simply have a knack for hearing their farts, and am loven it everyday!

>>38174906
Everyone needs a creative outlet anon.
You just do, and it doesn't matter how good you are, its for its own sake.
Here there was a tradition of miners playing in brass bands when it really was a horrible, dangerous and poor life to lead. There is something important in that I think. Spend six days a week half stripped crawling through dirt, spent the Sunday in church and then on to making some very beautiful music.

>>38174673
Depends on who you are and your values, really. There are tons of reasons to learn tons of different songs. Do you worship harmony? Do you like drama? What aesthetic do you need it for: do you want to lay back and be able to write something calming at sunset to feel oneness, something to play in a dimly lit room at 1 am on a friday as you contemplate existentialism and suicide, or something that will lay the foundation towards impressing people in a guitar shop/open mic? The ends have to kind of drive what you learn from and why.

I learned from basic coldplay, radiohead, gorillaz and john mayer songs because I was an emotional teenager frequently in and out of heartbreak, so the guitar became a therapy in which I sought harmony.

To learn the basic chords and how to strum them any melodic pop song on the billboard hot 100 now or over the past two decades will do, just have to find one you like. Type in the song name and add 'chords', then try to look for moments. Just in performing it you'll add your own little stylistic inputs according to how you feel and you'll be off

>>38174784
Lmao are you being facetious
There are a few tracks on there where I play with the rapping thing but I only got non-cringe good at it this year. Worked well at my last open mic cameo at least

>>38173131
absolute rubbish

>>38174906
The talent is passion, anon. That's all you need, whatever it is. I used to be 1000% into the sciences. I was pursuing a biology degree and doing great in all of my classes but I found myself writing songs instead of paying attention to lectures and doing homework, so it won out. That doesn't belittle the sciences though, I still love and miss them. Passion is what this life is about though; however it manifests itself is all that matters imo

>>38175049
I can already play chord strum music but some playable blues shit would be nice, I tried playing robert johnson but that shit is to hard to learn by ear

but do make some blues rap you don't need to rap you could reach out to a local rapper and play the music and maybe sing a few hooks

>>38173131
Jesus fucking Christ that voice is beautiful reminds me of TV on the radio
You have talent mate

i hate when someone who made shitty music goes on and on about their inspirations and how it's about "doing what you love". It is about doing what u love, but how can u love your music if it sucks?

>>38173194
I can see that, loled IRL reading it

>>38175291
you either sold out to other people or to yourself if your music sucks, neither of which is admirable at all

>>38170817
I am secretly awesome at sex, but as I am a virgin, nobody knows about it but me.

>>38173131
Get a song writer you wack son of a bitch.

>>38175370
I know and all these dumbasses are complimenting him

>>38170817
I'm profoundly good at singing strangely enough my aunt is a famous singer my great grandfather was also a famous musician and my sister sings amazingly also but I'm too ashamed to share my gift plus there are already a million good singers in the world what's the point of being able to sing making quality music is far more important

>>38175181
I abuse minor 7ths and by extension the blues minor pentatonic scale and all of its variations, and once u have that u literally have almost every western American song that i've stumbled across so far...hm

Listen to B.B King's legendary album "Live at the Regal" and pay the most attention to "How Blue Can You Get" to start off, once you learn those songs you have 70% of modern blues (the chord structure is basically copy-pasted by every blues musician-- minor 7th, 9th, minor 7th, dem descending three major chords, resolve in layman's terms). Then you can play along to some Black Keys. If you can watch motherfuckers play live + just try to solo/jam along/figure it out.

https://youtu.be/izkqPdVAdL4 (My favorite acoustic song to cover)

https://youtu.be/h1TQRJWLZ3s

https://youtu.be/XxyEBcjPcJg

>>38175207
thanks anon :)

>>38175291
If you think your music sucks you either don't have your fundamentals and technical ability down to a competent degree and/or you don't possess enough experience/self-awareness/reference experiences to know otherwise. This shit is quanifiable and can be approached pragmatically, it's not some insane logarithmic equation that's impossible to solve. You just gotta be ruthless. I've listened to my own voice memos and studio demos instead of other people's music since I started, and played it back to back with professionally mastered demos. You really gotta be willing to burn at the stake for progress

>>38175453
don't tell me anything about music
soundcloud.com/Robert-soley-1

>>38175370
>>38175396
>>38175085
Well arent u all statistical inevitabilities
I'm going to listen to your opinions

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I'm a famous artist and have browsed 4chan for several years. I made an AMA thread years ago and people thought I was John Frusciante.

>>38175577
Lead trash can player of Slipknot spotted

>>38175608
But REALLY THO, Jared Leto, how do u do?

>>38175485
your singing is weak and your playing sloppy

>>38175690
at least I can write a fucking song u mutant

>>38175577
Why do you come here? I assume because people treat you normal here?

>>38173131
You sound like a black smoker, don't quit your day job.

>>38175703
but u got a point, I just slop all ova the pla

>>38175753
but u r now to explain why there are people making GOOD music out there with shit equipment and no fans, but your douche ass has a bunch of followers, you sellout to sellouts?

>>38175577
Good taste anon chronometre blue is the goat

>>38170840
quality first post
here's your (You)

>>38170817
I'm the ghostwriter for a very famous musician in my country. Can't tell anyone but good friends, because no one knows that he's not writing his own lyrics..people think lesser of me because they don't know I also make some money myself and don't have to live off my parents entirely..feelskindabadman.jpg

>>38175718
Jealous neckbeard faggot detected

>>38170817
Im really good at self-loathing but i don't think people realise

>>38178201
>whiteknighting for some no talent hack
lmao

>>38170817
That's cute anon. Do you plan it to do it professionally or something?

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>sing to myself alone
>start to get good
>mfw hear somebody coming up the stairs

>>38179230
Bruh the more you post the higher the plays on my soundcloud go, your hate is literally only fighting your irrational case lmfao

>>38177091
Just the lyrics or the music too?

>>38179319
I wish I had a soundproofed room, anon
Very
Very
Badly

>>38179327
You really think soundcloud is a measure of success? You talk like a retarded nigger.

>>38170817
I am white and can freestyle and write grammy level hiphop and R&B songs. Not those "white boi" intellectual grammatically correct raps people expect. My bars are heavy, real street sheeeiit. I can make a black kid's jaw drop with just 2 lines most of the time. I've had gang members throw a bitch fit and pull the white privilege card out of pure envy. I could probably make it big, but I would have to climb mountains just to convince some music industry Jew to buy my soul. Every now and then, my mind makes connections between IRL things and some iconic lyrics, making me blurt out a few lines. People are always stunned to discover I listen to Hip-hop because I look so white and conservative. Little do they know that I am a human hip-hop encyclopedia that can recite entire lyrics from songs 20 years ago, or name the record label any major artist was/is signed to.

>>38179597
Lmao you're going to keep going then? That's cool mang. I didn't plan on sharing my music in this thread but it's gotten me 200 plays across 6 tracks is all I'm saying. Given that your criticism is so clearly based in racism I just thought you'd like to know that your unwarranted racism is only helping me.

>>38170817
You're probably really shit at dancing. There are people who think they're really good at singing but they're absolutely awful. You look fine in the mirror, to (You), from the limited angles you look at yourself. To anyone else, you'll look like a fool.

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>>38172695
im the same anon, i spend my entire life playing guitar in my room with the curtains shut

but u made one mistake

>blues
>2017

shiggydiggy

>>38179785
kek u right u right
I went full retard on my last studio project, full retard in 2017 is basically full electric blues and shit. I never said I was doing it for the prestige though, it's the only reason I haven't killed myself at this point. Only way I feel alive at this point.

>>38174784
Like this? I think it's fantastic.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcTv9vAIbVQ

>>38179722
>200 plays
Wow I bet you feel like such a fucking bigshot.
Kill yourself.

>>38179701
Yeah ok sure you can, why don't you blow us away right now? It should be easy since you're so good, take all the time you need.

>>38179701
What happened, anon? I thought you had "bars"? It couldn't have possibly been all bullshit, could it?

>>38180406
Pointless to spend my time attempting to impress someone with a mind so bent on hateful doubt. So here's something for your ego to feed on.

I fucked ur bitch nigga
She suck my dick nigga

Feel better now, knowing my best work is so mediocre? ha

>>38180694
>uhh, it's like t-totally not worth it haha
In other words, you were bullshitting and are really just a punk ass bitch. Color me surprised.

>>38180755
Yeah, man. I'm all talk. You got me. Are you going to ask OP to post a video of him dancing in his room too? I'd feel a little better if you forced him to do that, then I wouldn't feel so alone and victimized.

>>38173131
Shit, it is good.

Goddamn, anon, fulfill your potential.

>>38180851
If you can't walk the walk then don't talk the talk, you utter fucking failure.
>I could be successful, I just haven't tried!
>le talented but lazy
New variation on an old meme.

>ITT: Delusional poser faggots

>>38181026
You're right though, I haven't tried. I chose to focus on other skills/talents that make a living. Music is a hobby for now. I'm friends with a lot of musicians in all kinds of genres trying to make it. They have talent, quality, professional engineering, gigs. However, I know that talent does not matter in the industry as much as image, marketing and distribution. The industry has a lot of major barriers to entry, the music itself is like less than 10% of the work.

>>38181026
You're an imbecile. I'm good at stuff too that I don't care enough to make money doing, specifically because then I'd have to care about the opinions of idiots like you. So fuck it. Yeah, talented but lazy.

>>38170817
One day you're going to have to come out with it if you're actually better than MJ, this is for the good of western civilization anon.

>>38181228
>>38181310
>TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK
>still no walking
Keep making excuses. I'm sure your mommy is very proud of your music :)!

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I''m pretty good at beatboxing but i don't let anyone know because of how cringy it is.

as a whole i'm really self conscious about trying to do anything to improve myself like working out or learning an instrument. so i have to do everything like that in private.

>>38181417
So yeah, you unironically talk like this, but you expect talented people to put themselves out there to be judged by you. It would be like me showing one of my clay models to the chimpanzee at the zoo, he would just ooga booga and scratch his dick. You can see why nobody's interested in your opinion, right?

>>38173131

Wait you're actually good and not weird and autistic SHOO SUCCESS GOBLIN

>>38180051
I mean not really, it just makes you look like more of a dumbass lmfao

>>38181478
If that dulls the pain of failure, believe what you want. Come to me when you're a Quasthoff or a Fischer-Dieskau. Hint: You never will.
>>38181493
I have videos on Youtube with 30,000+ views each. Don't even try, kid.

>>38181478
He's the kind of person that never did a single thing with his life and gains satisfaction by bullying people with even the smallest amount of talent. It insults his inferiority, even on an anonymous internet board. They say, "Don't cast pears to swine." Nothing will impress him.

>>38181615
And you're the kind of guy who never really accomplished anything so he brags about his 'talents' on anonymous imageboards. Don't act so fucking high and mighty.

>>38181559
>30,000+ views each

Wow those are poverty numbers, pal. I was getting numbers higher than that back in 2009 and all I did was unbox toy guns. Ur a total failure.

>>38173131
Just stopping in to say you got some real talent bruh. I have no qualifications but you just sort of know when something's good. I'm genuinely shocked someone so gifted posts on this board

Aite I'll get off your d now

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>>38181694
It sure is a lot more than 600. See this? The face of your doom. Fucking step up pussy.

>>38181488
kek I'm weird and autistic wtf r u talkn about, u shouldve seen the banter I was saying between songs at my last show
My friend was making fun of my autism in front of the entire audience...I'm a work in progress, tough to make eye contact, look up from guitar etc

>>38181615
This. This. This.

>>38181559
>I have videos on youtube with 30,000+ views each
You're the most insecure little bitch beta with the most selective attention I have ever seen. I'm not attemping to imply that these views validate me-- if you read my posts you'd know that A.) I literally pulled away from the world solely because I didn't want to participate in that culture because it holds me back and B.) that track and entire demo was an old ass song that i wrote years ago, literally the first thing I recorded when i got into dude's studio, though i just released it to the public november last year.

My point you illiterate cuck is that regardless of all of your hatred of my content, in a thread where I'm receiving overwhelming praise left and right I might add, this thread was close to being pruned multiple times, long after I was done here, only to be revived by your baseless racist criticisms. Criticisms that i don't at all mind, because every time you bump this shit, the plays on the tracks that i no longer care for gain more exposure, and more praise in this thread. And though I appreciate this praise and exposure, I was living reaaaaaal good without it, especially since I think the songs are trash, as I fucking said, because I'm leagues past my old shit at this point.

I just thought the irony was funny, you insignificant cuck. +Fuck your 30,000 plays, no one gives a shit

That's 6 experimental songs at your feet of the hundreds i've written, and the only reason why I'm acknowledging you is to drag the irony out even more lmfao

>>38170872
>>38171468
>good at LoL
>Plat
Haha let me guess, you main vayne or riven?

>>38172695
We know it's you mac, you all ways did look like a robot.

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>>38181791
My gf is way hotter, buddy. I'm better than, you. Just look at me.

>>38181735
I appreciate that a lot anon. I'm sure this board is fucking filled with talent tho, beneath all of the self-loathing

>>38181895
>being THIS fucking defensive and mad
Lol I bet you think you're important enough that people should and will bother reading your drivel.
>losers on the internet praise me!
That doesn't mean jack shit. At least you stay inside like the fucking loser you are so I will never have the displeasure of seeing your fugly mug. You will die alone and all your 'music' will be deleted with the click of a button.

>>38182063
Kek, the irony continues
I'm not mad there, I'm laughing at you lmfao
Who hurt you anon? How was your day? Things go wrong at work? No one went to your last show?

>>38181895
>still hung up on 'muh racism'
So you really are a nigger. Kek how does it feel knowing you will ALWAYS be inferior to the white man.

>>38182063
Your only desire in life is to bring people down to your level of miserable existence. You're such a normie. But, at least you words contain some motivational undertones. If only they were warranted.

>>38182090
>I'm so talented I spend my time replying to posts instead of being so awesomely talented haha this is so funny xD
t. nigger

>>38182143
That nigger's life couldn't get any more miserable if I tried.

>>38182172
Screen cap this thread so u can masturbate to it tonight

i build high power liquid rocket engines, i don't tell anyone because they're illegal in my country without lots of licenses and permits which i can't get.

>>38182172
kek alright man
Hope you have a good night

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>>38170817
>playing guitar for a few years
>never played for anyone at first
>parents friends are over
>their daughter (like 6) comes in and starts watching me play
>her parents storm into my room and see me playing guitar
>they want to hear
>play something
>they say it's really cool and they didn't know I was "actually so good" at guitar
>they seemed genuinely impressed but something about it bothered me
>few months later
>cousin visiting
>he sees the guitar
>start playing for him after he asks me to
>he says "wow you're actually good"
>that word again
>actually
>his entire tone when he said it really bugged me
>realize every time I play for someone, I'm basically displaying years of constant practice and effort just for their fucking approval
>years of my effort just for a few minutes of their amusement
I don't play for people anymore, in fact I get extremely irritated and even angry when I find out someone has heard me playing. I know i'm autistic but whatever, I play for myself only. Fuck people, fuck their judgment, positive or negative, it bothers me.

>>38182612
Nah I'm right there with you anon. That fucking word "actually" is why I'm a shut-in about my art. Like they're always so fucking surprised. Bane of my fucking existence, I'd rather just not