> Be me > Used to have friends > used to go out >

>>38085708
That's rough man. You should cut ties with all your old friends, they seem shitty. Better to have no company than bad ones.

>>38085815
you're probably right brother, but ever since I started doing that my life has gotten arguably worse, and the fact that I don't ever chill with people whenever I am with people again and they're dicks it bothers me even more because I never see them. I used to not get this way and then everyone treat me like shit and pretend it didn't bother me, but it came to a point where I was sick of it and cut most ties, but its just left me lonely.

>>38085961
I know that feel. I'm in a similar situation and ghosted every single friend I had because I don't feel like I can connect with anyone anymore. I really don't know which route is best. Either way it hurts, but I'm sure eventually the loneliness will become normal to us.

>>38086039
and I feel like even if I did want to make a comeback its at the point of no return for me, I've already fully committed to this life.

>>38085708
I know this feel anon. My old friends from high school are just leagues ahead of where I am in life, and I rarely see them anymore. They've all moved on, and are doing their own things, and I just haven't been able to adapt to life without them because they were the only ones who ever cared for me and actually liked having me around. I haven't found anyone like them since going to uni. How old are you? Did you just graduate high school or are you a couple years out now?

>>38086153
You will get used to it slowly. I don't even desire to have friends or be accepted anymore. I already know how it will go. I'll never be liked by other people.

>>38086153
Not OP, but I ended up like this as well. I never had many friends, but I never had enemies, and my school mates (closest thing I had to friends) tried many times to make me fit in, but I could never really fit in anywhere.
Anyway, I've been a "semi-hermit" for almost 10 years now, and even if I can act normally when outside (at leastI think, no one seems to suspect how fucked I really am), I know that I'm completely screwed inside and now have no idea how to get out of this situation . The problems that I always had are now 10 times worse.

>>38086274
it just got out a few months ago, so I'm 18. I thought the last high school summer was going to be exciting seeing all of your friends together for the last time but nah

>>38085708
Become a wood- or metalworker. Build a shop, watch instructional vidya on yt, join an online community of hairy dudes who polish wood/metal for fun. Realize you are creating something physical that has value. It's the best feeling in the world.

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whom here /squanderedpotential/?

>used to have a bunch of friends
>made everyone laugh
>peers liked me
>teachers liked me
>went outside and socialised a lot
>was good at drama, in school performances a lot
>very outgoing
something magical happens at 16
presto chango
>i am now unable to function in social situations
>panic attacks whenever i'm approached, or challenged
>lost all my friends
>drop out of college because can't deal with the social aspects of college
>get depressed
>am now living at home with dad
>20 years old
>rarely go outside
>just wanna fucking end it

>>38086490
How did that happen? Did you see it coming, or at least, were you aware of what was happening as it was happening?

>>38086515
he probably started browsing this place

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i knew something was up and decided to do something about it a few times.
Accepting an invitation to a party from an old friend for example. ended up spending 90% of it her bathroom, in complete silence, waiting for everyone to leave. I tried again a couple times and each time it got worse, couldn't even introduce myself without my voice quaking.

>>38086490
you might actually be in the prodromal phase of schizophrenia desu, do you feel like sometimes there's a ridiculous situation where a stranger or group of strangers goes out of their way to mock or deride you? do you sometimes hear shouts calling you out on something you did privately that no one should know about and get paranoid about it?

>>38085708

I cut off all contact with all my friends about 10 months ago. I would say that I'm ultimately more happy because I don't have to hang out with people who only pretend to like me.

>>38086715
Not him but the same thing happened to me and I have actually noticed these changes ever since I turned 19. Sometimes I hear screams in my head and small voices usually when I fall asleep. I'm certain it's schizophrenia because it generally starts to develop at this age. I was never very social, but as I grow older, the harder it becomes to communicate with others.

>>38086715
hmm no i can't say i experience any of these things in particular
i do get really paranoid about similar things though, especially in public

>>38085708

>my room thats littered with LEGO like I'm a fucking child because its the only thing i can spend time doing,

Thank god I'm not the only one. What do you build anon?

>>38086343
That sucks man. It was like that for me and I consider myself lucky for that. Summer after senior year was the best summer ever for me. The next summer was great too. Last summer was alright, but this summer is shit. They're all doing their own thing now.

>>38087001
I typically build Star Wars themed ships. I have a shelf of a few models I really like.

>>38087992

Noice, I usually build star wars themed panoramas. Maybe occasionally a modern military one.

>>38085708
the black pill is this
no woman will fill up your loneliness, they only want something to get out of the relationship.
you need to find a friend that you have something in common with

>>38088139
that also wont drop you at the slightest chance of pussy. i swear on my life that i'd sooner drop my friend off than go hope with a bitch. if she can't respect that she can fuck right off

>>38088139
I know man, but its hard for me to get close to people anymore. Plus now that I'm outta school I gotta start from scratch at college, I'm just going to community for a while first

>>38088174
thats always a problem where I'm from. I don't know what it is, being I know what it's like to have shitty friendships, I feel like I value friendship and trust more than others

>>38085708
>worst summer of my life
It's summer?

>>38088251
>I know man, but its hard for me to get close to people anymore
I don't understand where you got the impression this won't be the case. I'm lucky enough to have ONE DUDE that I have this kind of relationship with. IMO if you don't have a bro that will be there for you and that you treat with respect, no matter how many women you have you will eventually be doomed because you will put them on the highest pedestal and you will have no one to discuss your problems with

>>38085708

>be 27
>no friends in the present
>no friends from the past
>hate work
>hate the people who I work with
>hate life in general

I haven't even had a gf, I am so prone to anger it's pretty much the only emotion I really feel. Everyday is a blur, a forgettable mess. I remember being 17 like it was yesterday and nothing happened in that gap except vidya and occasional drink.

>>38088284
people have very little dignity. that's where the problems stems from.

>>38088319
I wish I could go out with you and just have a good time. Please try and relax. You pretty much get out of this life what you put into it. Don't hold onto the frustration and anger not for their sake but for yours.

>>38088341

But anon, the frustration and anger is all I have left.

>>38088355
They are destroying you.

>>38088397

I don't think I can be destroyed anymore than I already fucking am.

Does anyone else find no joy in anything anymore, just things to distract yourself.

Yesterday I counted all the decorative spots on my curtains. There are 1,475 of them.

>>38088511
This place especially can warp your view greatly.
The only reality in this world is the reality you experience, the things you choose to focus on are the things that constitute your reality. If you choose to focus on negative things your life will be constitute exactly of that. It sounds overly simplistic but that's how humans are. Try on focusing on your senses. Going for a walk. I realized a while back while I was Ill that I might never walk again. I sometimes get a great joy out of walking on a sunny day now. Again, I'm not trying to force anything on you, and I understand that by comparing yourself with someone worse off can make things even worse (if you choose to focus on that) but try to focus on the good parts.

>>38085708
>someone that was going to give you a ride decides to give stacey a ride instead last minute
what a fucking prick

>>38088931
unfortunately most people are like that, would stab a friend in the back for a slight chance at a pussy. I don't know how to put it except that it makes me puke

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This hits me hard

Original, happy?

>>38085708
If you're not popular with women then no one wants to hang out with you. It's that simple.

>>38089925
very true I've noticed this as well.