>Everyday he wishes for someone to come into his life that

What is depersonalization like? Also are you seeking help about your issues?

>>37994935
It's strange and hard to explain... its almost as if I'm in a constant tunnel vision mode and my feelings, thoughts, and emotions are on autopilot.

I have tried getting help but there is a long list of people ahead of me that get to see the psychiatrist first. Couple months wait

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>>37994935
depersonalization is the worst feel one can feel. especially if it's almost all the time. feels like your head is empty, only the eyes work.

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I'm unsure of what I have but it's clear that I'm disconnected from reality, I disregard the opinions or thoughts of others as mine are more important, I put objects such as the clothing people wear in front of their personality and judge them so. If we're being completely honest, I could care less about the others around me. Sure, they're there and I'm fully capable of interacting them but I just don't care. There's nothing to gain out of it so I simply don't do so. I have no problem with dismissing people, same goes for lying or other general mischevious acts.

I get bored often and sometimes that'll lead to me doing general sporadic things, very high risk but I don't care, never really crosses my mind, I just wanna do it because I'm bored.

I've also had a past of being generally "violent" during my childhood. I used to toy around with my sister's pet frogs until eventually, they died because I took them out and stomped on them, after that we weren't allowed to have pets.

Anyone know what the fuck this is? I'm assuming it's not normal because people usually don't have these symptoms (If you can call it that.)

>>37995380
Sounds like a narcissistic faggot, atleast you know you are one.

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>>37994912
I'm glad I've not gotten depersonalization, but I've been dealing with derealization, anxiety, and non-stop heavy depression for a long time now. I was always depressed and anxiety before, but when my dog died last year it just completely hit the fan. He was the one and only thing I had. After I lost him the derealization came in. I consider suicide daily, and just think about it, but have to actively fight the urge to do it. I some times strangle myself with a belt until my body can't keep doing it and my arms go limp.