>Be loner throughout childhood >Convince myself that I'm

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2017-06-26 01:21:02 Post No. 37962989
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Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:21:02 Post No. 37962989 [Report]

>Be loner throughout childhood
>Convince myself that I'm actually happier alone so my lack of social life doesn't seem like such a big deal
>Immerse myself in video games to drown out any doubts
>Hit mid-20s
>All solo activities feel pointless
>Existential dread and chronic depression have worsened
>Can't shake feelings of hopelessness no matter what I'm doing with my time
>Life starts not feeling like it's worth the effort
>Antidepressants do nothing

I wish I could just go to sleep and dream forever. Or just not wake up.

Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:22:05 Post No.37963007
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Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:22:05 Post No.37963007 [Report]

That's how I feel as well. Nothing matters anymore to me.

Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:24:20 Post No.37963040
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>>37962989
>antidepressants do nothing
maybe try getting off the brain-fry pills

Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:26:53 Post No.37963071
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Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:26:53 Post No.37963071 [Report]

Same happened to me. I had no idea how important friends and connections are. I really shot myself in the foot.

Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:27:53 Post No.37963089
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>>37963071
Something weird happens at 25 I feel like.

Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:28:48 Post No.37963108
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Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:28:48 Post No.37963108 [Report]

I spend my life doing things I don't want to do, and I don't know what I do want to do. In every moment I'm either unhappy or temporarily forgetful of my unhappiness due to a video game or tv show. I spend most of my free time lurking and making dumb posts on image boards with the faint hope that some random post will enlighten me or connect me with somebody. It's stupid but this is all I got.

Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:29:53 Post No.37963125
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>>37963040
They were worth a shot, at least. I even went through 12 rounds of ECT and that also did nothing.

The fact that there is no easy solution to chronic depression is one of the bitterest pills to swallow. You have to bust your ass and jump through all sorts of hoops just to feel as normal as people who don't have to deal with it at all.

Anonymous 2017-06-26 01:31:47 Post No.37963154
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>>37963040

On 20mg of Celexa, really doesn't seem to be helping though. Thought about coming off them but what if I get worse?

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