Does this sound familiar to you?
Some individuals with SPD who are in treatment say that "life passes them by" or they feel like living in a shell; they see themselves as "missing the bus" and complain of observing life from a distance. According to Aaron Beck and Freeman, "Patients with schizoid personality disorders consider themselves to be observers, rather than participants, in the world around them."
actively participating in the world gives me intense anxiety
I swear there was another reply in this thread. Is hallucinating shitposts also a symptom of schizoidphrenalism?
>>37862819
This sounds familiar to me but I just have plain ol' assburgers compounded with years of abuse at the hands of my family and peers, leading to derealization, total social withdrawal and ultimately complete failure at life.
>>37863027
Check the archive you mong.
>>37862819
I felt this way but its not SPD
it was an unhealthy obsession with my long lost childhood
Nothing in the current time felt useful to me or relevant. I felt like the best years of my life were already over and done with so all I could do was just to the routine until death.
Got over that, gladly. And away went the observer feelings.
I know that feel. I don't feel like I'm a part of this world at all. I'm about as attached to the real world as I am to a fantasy universe, like the Middle Earth. Neither are truly real to me. When I read the news and look at history unfold, it feels like I'm reading the plot of a fictional story that I don't really care about. I'm not invested in any of it, and I don't care how it ends.