>tfw my chinese penpal stopped replying after I told him that my chronic pain and depression are getting to me
>is angry my progress in getting buff again is taking so long.
>was careful because of rheumatism and arthrosis to get back to my former glory, but also had certain depressed phases where I ate like shit.
I hate my fucking life, I don't know what to do anymore, I just wanna run away from my pain and my sadness but I can't. The panic is getting to me so maybe a second hearth muscle infection will end me...