>aware of my descent into robothood
>I'm at least average looking, if I hit the gym and build confidence somehow I could probably get a gf
>if I look for a job I could stop being a useless NEET
>aware of the steps I need to take to save myself
>told myself I'm gonna go to the gym starting
>spend the whole day shitposting and watching anime
>feel useless because I didn't do anything
>don't do anything because I feel useless
>repeat
>impending doom apparently isn't enough to motivate me to stop watching anime and look for a job, hit the gym, etc
should I off myself now or later
>>37830066
Embrace stoicism and see this through to the end. I don't think Saber would like it if I killed myself so I'm going to stick around and try not to go insane
spent several months absolutely drunker than hell every night off Sailor Jerry's, NEET lyfe.
ended up getting out of it through what i imagine is best called a minor mental break; the self-disgust eventually reached a point where I could no longer tolerate it so I went to every hotel in two counties until one of them hired me, got back in school, etc etc etc
i would say that you've got to harness a strong emotion or desire or dream in order to change- for me it was disgust and anger.
good luck of course, wasn't really that worried about the gf bit, i'm pretty self-sufficient and i've no need to hit the gym unless i am unhappy with skelly-status