>tfw your first exposure to 4chan that wasn't just general mid-2000s internet culture on newgrounds or similar sites was in 2011/2012 via a combination of /r/4chan screencaps + subreddits for edgy pictures and you didn't even go to /b/ until a year later
>tfw after 4 months on /b/ you bounced around /a/, /v/, /g/, /fit/, and /jp/
>tfw you pretended to not be a completely cancerous underage newfag around people and they believed it
>tfw your only friends are anonymous posters on 4chan and if they knew who you actually were they would hate you and want you to kill yourself
>tfw you only identify and get along with the older posters even though you're years younger than them and haven't experienced any of the same things they did solely because the majority of them are just as cynical and depressed as you
>tfw you could have started browsing 4chan in 2011 if you had just spent more time on the computer instead of playing video games and saved yourself from most of this constant stress
>tfw you've pretended to be an oldfag for 2 years and have spent countless hours reading up on imageboard history and reading through archived posts as well as saving images with old filenames to make the illusion seem so real you actually believe it most of the time
>tfw even on 4chan you'll never fit in just being yourself and by the time you're the age you pretend to be all the older posters will have moved on and all the younger posters will have changed the atmosphere of imageboards into something you hate
>tfw you literally have suicidal thoughts over this and lie in bed awake at night wracked with guilt at the fact that you're just an imposter, that everyone you've ever talked to online would hate you if they knew the truth, and that there will never be a place for you among the oldfags, the newfags, or anywhere inbetween
I hope in a few years I'll look back on this and laugh because I've found a place to belong in the 2020s but my hopes aren't high. I think I have depression.
>>37824381
chill out and fap to traps my man.
You're an oldfag once you've been here regularly for 2 years.
I lurked and read up on all the history at encyclopedia dramatica before coming on here after 18.
>>37824432
>you're an oldfag once you've been on here for 2 years
Lmao are you for real?. I've been on here for 6 years and I would def not consider myself an oldfag.
nigga what the fuck
its literally jsut a stupid taiwanese hieroglyphs BBS
calm down
>>37824464
As long as you respect the culture and have studied the history I don't think it's very much of a problem
>>37824736
I don't care that you've been on here for 2 years I care that you think it makes you an oldfag. That shows you don't "respect the culture and have studied the history".
i been going on 4chan since 2010
>>37824759
oh sure I'm not an oldfag but I do fit in and feel no guilt
I first came here after the 9gag raids when I was 12 years old, now I browse /r9k/ and want to kill myself.
>hated reddit since its inception
>still wanted a place to discuss shit I like, vidya and whatnot.
>avoided this place anyways because I literally thought pornography was illegal until I was about 16
>found out it wasnt
>went on /v/
>got exposed to cp immediately
>eventually end up here
>>37824381
I remember the first round of /r9k/. I come back sometimes to see how the board is doing.
You need to chill and leave. Nothing on here is a big deal
>>37824778
i've only been here since 2015 and have only discovered r9k since 2 weeks ago