>have almost everything i can possibly want
>still feel like shit
>partner on vacation, doesnt buy portable wifi to chat
>realize im a lonely fucker without any friends
>crippling social anxiety causing complete lack of friends
>cry like some kind of faggot over the loneliness
>feel terrible but not terrible enough to off myself
>but terrible enough to impede productivity
>actually manage to exercise
>running high wears off after a few hours, feel like shit again
>realize i have it better than most people on this board wtf is my problem
>trying so hard to think positively but im failing
>>37819398
>be me
>feel same shit
>realise it's just a wave of emotions and will pass
>go out and walk the streets to clear my head
>be me
>utter failure
>still smug
Now stop reddit spacing
>>37819424
Yeah i get that. It's just that i've been having these bouts and battling them for like the past ten years. Life goes great and im getting more and more productive, and i think "hell yeah im getting somewhere with this"- then boom another bout of this weird stuff hits me. And i beat myself up for losing productivity and "regressing back to square one" so to speak.
Maybe i just to accept these waves as a a part of my life, and that i'll just have to live with it.
>>37819445
nah i kinda think of myself as a failure too, because i could be so much more if my mind didnt freak out like that every few months
>>37819398
Weak cry babies like yourself should be put down. Boooohooooo your bitch isnt whit you for a little bit of time. Try an eternity being alone. You stupid fucking cunt I would stomp your pathetic brains out given the chance you useless pussy piece of human shit. Fuck you
>>37819516
yeah, it's about living with the waves, recognising them for what they are and holding your breath, until they pass