>Mania is back >Only sleep every other night >Got plenty

>>37763399
but what comes after the mania?

manic depression always seemed super comfy

so much better than just... depression

>>37763451
you're a fucking idiot

original

>>37763529
you have literally no argument

braindead neurotypical

>>37763451
Well the manic periods can be nice, the depression, at least for me, hits every hard though.
My best manic episode I was making video games 12-16 hours every single day without procrastinating, I learned a lot about art and programming during that time.

>>37763729
Wow. Maniac depression sounds pretty cool. How can i aquire such state? Can i just un-maniacdepression myself and go back to regular depression?

>>37763729
depression hits hard for everyone. be thankful that you are fortunate enough to experience mania.

>>37763399
>mania starts
>stop thinking about consequences
>do reckless things that I'll come to regret later
>can't take a moment to calm down and think, everything flittery
>mania stops
>feel like a waste of oxygen
>constantly want to stop existing and stop thinking
>too scared to do anything but wait
Yeah sure I'm so blessed, totally not an illness at alllll.

>>37764302
>>feel like a waste of oxygen
>>constantly want to stop existing and stop thinking
>>too scared to do anything but wait

Now just imagine feeling like that, but all the time.

Every day, forever.

>>37764302
I think I'm blessed to be relatively functional during manic states. Although oddities do arrive, like being randomly irritable forcing me to not socialize.

Sometimes I get an obession with the feeling of pain, I once used an old rough rope to burn the skin off my shins by putting it tightly around them and then pulling it back and forth.
I also become oddly religious.

>>37764397
Yeah, depression definitely isn't any better, but I'm just saying that it's still a mental illness
>>37764409
Yeah, like I get the same things but I just hate having to deal with it later, so I come to resent myself when down, and ignore myself when up. Feels like it's two different people so it doesnt seem like much of a blessing at all imo

>>37764445
Yeah the duality of personalities is intresting.
I noticed it also has caused me to view things from 2 sides very easily, as being in either emotional state for prolonged amounts of time, at least for me, causes me to live / think / study certain points of view.

>>37764764
I always was interested in the inbetween moments, they always felt weird but sobering (in a different kind of sense, I'll be damned if I'm ever actually sober)

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>>37763399
Hypomania is even better and probably optimal human state.

>all the energy, creativity, charisma and confidence mania brings
>none of the downsides of mania such as overspending, recklessness, distractability etc

>>37763897
>>37764005
not him, but what I do is cut down my sleep to like 3-4 hours a night and take a lot of caffeine and whatever stim pills I can get my hands on, it set in, but its not 100%

Something about not getting much sleep makes it come on

>>37765780
Agreed.
Suddenly not being depressed and tired all the time, all I can think of is "I am so going to be unable to sleep soon"

>>37766136
The transition from manic to depressive though is awful, because I always feel like "Why aren't I as good as I was a few days ago" and that I'm somehow failing myself and the people i know by not being as good as I was then

let's be honest: mania sucks. there's no better way to suddenly wreck your life than a good old fashioned manic episode.

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>>37766252
Honestly it has bailed me out more often than not.
Nothing more nice than having on average 4 more hours every day, exercise daily, and be able to just churn out work.

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>spend $500 dollars buying used jackets and an amplifier on ebay

Fuck this shit man

>>37766545
Yeah mania can be expensive, I agree.
Worst shit I did was suddenly feeling like I was going to be a great arist, I lost around $800 in supplies.
But hey I got a digital tablet that most art students would prostitute themselves for, so thats... nice.

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>>37766584
>mania
>get bright idea of buying bulk vintage clothing to flip for profit
>spend $700 on the clothes
>3 enormous boxes delivered to house
>filled with nothing but junk from less than 5 years ago
>mfw

The worst part is knowing it's a terrible idea yet you still convince yourself that it'll be alright

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>>37766669
it fucking sucks dude
>tfw spent $300 in a freemium game
>Never played it after a week