I was raped pretty young and have some minor schizophrenia and autism. I'm kinda conventionally attractive yet still socially inept. I think most people think I'm a serial killer or something (Jake gyllenhal in that music video level) but I just genuinely don't like meeting people. Always feel like I have to justify my shitty personality. Don't like having to tell everybody my "traumatic" life story either so don't really date. Could probably be happy but Its like I don't want to be. Like I want others to pity me as a misunderstood loner instead of taking a chance and actually dating or having friends.
me exept for also being a slav
>>37713182
do you think the act of sexual contact caused your schizophrenia, or do you think it was, such things as threats, physical abuse or mental abuse that occurred with the rape?
>Could probably be happy but Its like I don't want to be. Like I want others to pity me as a misunderstood loner instead of taking a chance and actually dating or having friends.
you just described all of /r9k/
>>37713318
I don't think it was purely the rape that gave me schizophrenia but I think it was a factor that spiraled in to it.I guess You shouldn't blame all my problems on others but rape making me weird is kinda justifiable
>>37713182
Sorry for your experiences anon. Here's your pity.
Anything else you want?
>>37713318
Childhood trauma and genetic disposition are major factors that contribute to mental illnesses, like schizophrenia.
Autism/schizo dude here also, it's an unholy combination. Not only do I avoid conversation with people which makes them think I'm stuck up but then I hallucinate them talking shit about me or reading my mind...
>>37714682
yes, but wondering if it was specifically the sexual contact or if it was the brutalization
>>37714780
Mix of both. People can have the gene that causes schizophrenia but not have enough trauma in their lives to activate it. Schizophrenia is quite literally physical changes to the brain so if they experience something traumatic enough they can get it later in life.
>>37714780
What this guy said, >>37714840 , I would try to look up my psychological disorders notes, but my brain is completely fried from finals.
>>37713182
Hi anon. You looking to vent about life with autistic screeching in this thread?
I'll gladly listen.perhaps even join you
I was raped very young as well, and for some reason done of the few people I have told think I was too young to remember.
>>37715015
are you schizophrenic aswell? what if you just made it up?
>crippling fear of women not because of sexual frustration but rape
>>37715147
no I'm not schizophrenic, the person who did it was caught in the act so I know it certainly isn't something I made up.