Anyone other academically successful but autistic and antisocial

I am a genius in my field, but hard to work with because I am fucking autistic when it comes to socializing. Luckily I got my own office. I dared to go out and sit with the rest of the personnell one day and this bitch I work with comes in and cries and cries. I did not have my phone with me so I ended up staring at the wall infront of me while eating my lunch. In the end I asked if she was not going to have lunch. Fuck me.

I don't know man I always thought I was intelligent but I think the excess of unhealthy habits fried my brain and the perpetual loneliness has crippled me.

My grades are starting to go to shit and I find it really hard to study or concentrate anymore. I can't even think or focus properly. Being in a good career was all I had to show off for myself and now it's going to shit.

>>37697780
I don't even know my multiplication tables because of short-term memory loss. I even need to keep my address on my phone at all times.

>>37697780
Academic success takes motivation. There's not a lot of that around here.