27 years on Earth and I still manage to fuck up and push others

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Please give me (You)s. I don't want to be alone on r9k too. Maybe there isn't even anywhere on the internet for me either anymore.

Well robots, at least you'll never be as pathetic as this thread.

There's always going to be someone more autistic.

What do you expect people to say?

>>37661498

I think it's time for you to get an internet girlfriend

and no, i'm not talking about "girl", an actual 100% authentic female

>>37661798
I want 30 year old+ people to tell me if it gets better, worse, or stays the same. But I guess that's a bit of a miss, sometimes I feel like one of the longest lurkers around.

>>37661811
I've been trying for years but always seem to make some sort of faux-pas and get ghosted. As much as I've tried to improve on picking up social cues I guess I'm still poor at it.

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>>37661825
do you need help anon?

http://store.steampowered.com/app/349720/

download and start playing this game. devote a week or two and you'll make at least one female friend. game's playerbase is 70% female 30% male. not joking btw

dive in and get started. you'll thank me later.

my steam is zombiefurbie if you have any questions

>>37661880
that's funny as fuck tbqh

>>37661905
>funny as fuck

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H4ltltXQMzE

1:1 personal time with a female friend looking to spend time with you is "funny as fuck"? this video should convince you otherwise. the rumors are true.

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>>37661498

Life sucks the entire way through, sift through the seppo tank and find yourself the nuggets of gold. Then share the gold with someone else. Feed those birds, senpai.

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>>37661880

I couldn't imagine what would be worse. Finding love with someone who liked a game like this, or getting a visit from chris hansen.

You twisted fuck.

>>37661498
Fuck I know this feel bro.

I'm 25 myself and have no idea how to connect with people outside of pointless smalltalk. It hurts knowing I'll never have a warm embrace with someone outside of prostitutes. It hurts knowing I'll never be someone that people want to be around or talk to. It's painful knowing that it'll only get harder as I get older.

I wish I had advice for you but I don't. I really hope things get better for you man. Just keep your chin up.

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>>37661962
That's what kills me, rowboat. I've gone through life so far and there's been some gold nuggets here and there. But not having anyone to share those moments with quickly tarnishes the experience and sends me into a spiral of self-loathing.

Never experienced teenage love, 20s love, moving onto 30 without hope. At that point I'm scared the dating pool has evaporated and only single mothers are left, the scraps. All my hobbies such as anime/games/etc are all too 'young'. The age gap would creep people out.

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>>37662000
>> It hurts knowing I'll never be someone that people want to be around or talk to.
This, so much. What's it like to be someone who gets messaged first by others? To have others wait for your replies? To be the one approached for games, activities? I try not to be bitter but I think I'd prefer the avalanche of offers girls get than the desolate wasetland that is life as a male. You can filter a torrent, but you can't squeeze blood from a stone.

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>>37662013
39 here, it never gets better.

If we haven't been selected for romantic or platonic partnership by anyone in school or in the workforce, there's a reason for this.

"If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all."

People don't want to outright tell you to kill yourself. We've learned our lesson from the Holocaust. Instead, they'll just implicitly express it by ignoring you or choosing the obviously worse choice over you simply because they don't LOOK creepy or weird.

Looks > everything else. If you're not tall, dark, and handsome, please rest your neck gently upon a train rail and wait for the wheels of sweet release to separate your pain-riddled head from your worthless body.

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>>37662119
You've helped reinforce what I suspected, but never wanted to admit. It feels even worse because I'm tall. By all means, I should've succeeded right? But that doesn't matter when I end up pushing people away because I can't communicate properly.

>>37661498
I can relate to most of things you've written about yourself.

You don't have friends at all?
Have you tried seeking help from a shrink?

27 y/o here. Feel the same way. Being universally undesirable and in some fundamental way broken (why else no love?) It's such a terrible feeling. At my wit's end. Probably going to quit my job, move to CO and smoke tons of weed all day every day, go to a brothel in Nevada at some point to give up the v-card, and then finally check out of this hell.

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>>37662269
I'm terrified of seeing a shrink. I'm scared it'll be recorded against me in a database somewhere. It'll stop me from doing something in the future, I can't risk that impedance. Even if it means letting my mind lash at itself. That thought alone means I should probably see one though, I guess, huh?

I don't have any intimate friends I can open up to. Only acquaintances. I've estranged myself from everyone in life.

>>37662298
Why can't we be afforded the same love that toehrs are? Why do we have to pay and suffer the attack on our dignity?

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>>37662449
Because we have shitty broken anti social personalities

>>37662561
In all my self-loathing I almost forgot that startling reality. Thanks for the wake-up call.

>>37662013

>only single mothers left

dude, after you get to thirty you can crush any pussy you want, especially if they're late teens to early twenties. You didn't miss out, you just dodged having a baby at 22 and being crushed by the weight of the expectations of this meat grinder.

There are upsides to this path of >yours

>>37662561

this is just about the truest post on the board tonight.

>>37661982
Jesus fucking christ

You have your hands in the air flailing say SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME WITH MY GIRL PROBLEMS

Someone xtends you a hand and says ILL HELP YOU TAKE MY HAND

and you're like BUT YOUR HAND IS GREASY AAAAAAAAAAA

best thread I've seen in a while

some real torment here

>>37662789
That's how our self destructive tendencies work.

Failing hurts, but having hope hurts even more because the next fall is going to be even harder.

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>>37662762
But I don't want to crush pussy all day long. I want loving, caring, companionship. I guess I have to settle for being a daddy figure and fetishized over that age gap, although people have already commented it as being a creepy thing. Beggars can't be choosers.

>>37662837
Share your experiences.

>>37662878
You don't have to find your girlfriend on a game if you don't want to

However, there is no excuse not to make female friends in games like this and use it to practice female communication which you can then apply to the real world

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>>37661498
You have to change your goals now. If you can't be loved, at least become someone who is feared. Maybe find something to be really good at to fill the void.

>>37662762
Not him but I'm 5'4 and no that doesn't happen unless you're tall and handsome.

>>37662919
>. If you can't be loved, at least become someone who is feared
This is how we create evil guys!

>>37661498

33. Why would it change? If anything you can accept it easier since the window for a happy 'normal' life gets smaller and smaller. I feel I'm near the point of no return. Maybe it's freeing in a sense but really it's just the same profound loneliness your accustomed too just 6 years later.

>>37661498
If you cannot love yourself first then you're bound to be distant with others or even reject them.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3aFfz-2jEY
This is your reaction when someone tries to approach you emotionally.

>>37662938
Why would you care that you're evil in the eyes of the very people who never gave a fuck about you?

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>>37663009
>>37662938
I want a future where people don't have to suffer the same as what we went through. Let that be my legacy.

>>37661811
I just tried this and feel into the same beta orbit trap nonsense. Every gamer girl is gonna have an e-bf it's hopeless

>>37663009
>Why would you care that you're evil in the eyes of the very people who never gave a fuck about you?
To let them know its their fault ?

>>37663048
>I just tried this and feel into the same beta orbit trap nonsense.

you're in the wrong communities friend. if you're in an online community with a female playerbase with at least 40% female audience, there will always be someone for you

>>37662931
lucky me I guess.

Life deals us cards, you got the deck, you know the rules. Get your poker face on and bluff, motherfucker.

If I was 5'4 I'd actually have to labor to have a personality, might be a good thing for me.

Grass is always greener on the otherside. You should probably just learn to accept yourself.

But do you have a job at least senpai? Asking for a pitiful self loathing friend

>>37662301
But nowadays so many people consult shrinks, seems like evreyone is broken in one way or another. At this point I don't really pay that much attention if it's "in database", I'm going through hard times and I need a help from specialists.

How about your family? Do you keep in touch with them?

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>>37663048
>I just tried this and feel into the same beta orbit trap nonsense. Every gamer girl is gonna have an e-bf it's hopeless

Found your problem

You are specifically looking for "gamer girl". You should be looking for any general girl.

And if you're fishing for girls that play the games YOU like to play, it's time to stop. Stop looking for girls on call of duty. Stop looking for girls on overwatch. Stop looking for girls on lleague of legends. These are ALL male-dominated communities, you won't find ANY girls that cling to you on these communities

Enter the female communities of tumblr, music games, phone apps, facebook games, etc.

I'm educating you like you're 12. I know my shit. Start taking notes.

>>37662931
Besides that, you're going to have real difficulty getting anything serious going.

A common theme I always hear with older men/sugar daddy types is something along the lines of "she left because she wanted to live her life". I've seen it even here a bunch.

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>>37663107
Yes. Asking for a friend is a strange one. The irony is that my job revolves around people. Talking in a business setting is much easier than the genuine human interaction that comes with wanting to bridge a connection. I've tried hard to improve a lot of facets in life but this one I keep falling flat on.

>>37663085
Personality means shit. The important traits are dominance and competence. But even if you're competent, being short you can never passively project dominance.

The average 13 years old boy is taller and has broader shoulders than me. I turn 29 soon. Sure, one on one you might be able to get some interest but the second another male enters the area it's over.

I'm convinced that this board doesn't realize how height can fuck you over because the average user is 16 years old, and surely enough it doesn't matter that much before you finish high school.

>>37663149
As someone over 6ft I can agree with this man. Height matters, a lot. People judge you on the most silly of things, things you can't change. And it's depressing to see brothers of the same suffering cop it even worse because of a silly social value.

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>>37663135
How does it work? After getting enough money they leave to get pounded by Chad?

>>37661498
Here's your (you).

If you make it to 30 as a single man, you'll get to watch the freak show that is the fallout from 4 decades of feminism.

>>37662298
Weed and hookers sound like a pretty good time, why would you check out? Wouldn't you come back for more?

>>37663274

People are going to judge you for just about anything. Go watch the last 8 mile freestyle and if you don't learn at least a little about how to live your fucking life, you're doomed anyway.

>>37663409
They stop being into him and leave to find someone closer to their own age to settle down with.

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>>37663535
This is making my mind break.

>>37663532
also, most of the desirable a-list actors range between 5'6-6'2... if you're shorter than that either own it like a man or wear thick soled shoes.

You have absolutely nothing to complain about, stop making hurdles for yourself, you're not even in track and field at the games.

27 was my low point, anon. Things have mostly been improving since then. The overall trend has been positive despite some pretty bad setbacks.

I'm 30 now. The last 3 years were the best of my life so far. I've matured and it's helped in ways I couldn't even imagine when I was younger.

I can't say it's any kind of general rule, but people do seem to tend to get mellower and less upset by trivial things when they age. That helps a lot.

>>37663561
Would you settle down with a milf 5-10 years older than you if she only has a few more attractive years left?

>>37664163
Is 5 years meant to be a large gap?

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I'm in your same situation OP, but I have a different opinion.

I have seen edgy fedora neckbeards get qt loving girlfriends. People accidentally becoming social and popular. People winning at life DESPITE being fuckups. Finding love in your life is mostly random. Intellectual people have trouble discerning skill and luck. The just world fallacy. If someone is happy, they must deserve it, they think. If someone is miserable it must be their fault.

We already talk about how Chad is happy simply because of luck and random genetics (even if he thinks that it's because of his own effort), yet when you're miserable you blame yourself and think it's your own fault.

And I don't mean to say: "It's all random so nothing matters and nothing is your fault." Randomness can break or improve things, and that depends of certain proprieties in systems and people. If want to know how to benefit from randomness look up Antifragility. You have to learn to be lucky.

That's why you made this thread, right? You hope that the right person will read your replies and tell you the answer. And that only depends on luck. It's not something you can figure out by yourself. It's random. It might work and it might not, it's not up to you.

Like you, I'm sitting in an island, throwing bottles with messages at the sea. Hoping that someone someday will read one and reply back to me. And it works. The only reason why I have a job is because someone read one of those proverbial bottles and decided to hire me. People suddenly understand what I'm talking about and reply back to me.

It's very scary to take up on a positive opportunity when it shows up. It's like that dog >>37662949. I bet that if a girl actually showed some interest in you, you would push her away. I have done that. I rejected a job drawing manga in Japan because I was scared. It's not a question of confidence or social skills. You just have to accept the risk that everything will fall apart. That will never go away.

>>37661498
Army man away from home is here for you friend

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>>37664704
This. It's all so very random.
Short story, but I used to have an uglier, shorter, and black friend in high school. He was a childhood friend actually. Anyways, this guy went on to become one of the most popular guys in his social clique {weeaboo club} and even got his cock sucked (probably) under the bleachers once.

Chad is ultimately just a boogeyman. Anyone can be a chad as long as the circumstantial checker pieces fall in place correctly. They didn't for me, I was born tall and average, but I'm poor and have a teeth gap. The latter aline pretty much stopped me from talking to anyone in middle school, but when I got over it I started getting pretty bad acne. Thanks to that I became the "quiet but smart kid that no one ever talks to and sits by himself on the bus and at lunch everyday". Throughout high school I literally had FOUR chances to start a new slate, to change all this, but I didn't. I let my chances go to waste, and now I'm suffering for it in the present, forever stuck on 4chsn whining about how girls are shallow and insular.

Sorry if I went on a bit there. A lot of this probably doesn't apply to you since you're 10 years older than me, but yeah. Life is all about circumstances man... Fuckin hell. .

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I'm losing weight at 27 and girls talk to me unlike before. I'm counting my calories and working out senpai, it's happening.

>>37665914
H o w t a l l

oreganoooi

>>37665857
Carrot a shit

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>>37662949
That dog thing is kinda scarily true.

I've been finishing up community college and always push away people that try to be friendly to me. Besides being socially inept, I just imagine that they're pitying me, like they think they're doing me a massive fucking favor by gracing me with their presence