How do I deal with the depression, anxiety and loneliness robots?

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How do I deal with the depression, anxiety and loneliness robots? Life is dull and even when everything is going perfect, I don't enjoy life.

Over the course of the years I went from being a drunk at 18 to being a full blown drug addict at 23. Already had 2 suicide attempts that ended up in ER, almost ODed the last time I used, that very same day I was in a psychotic stay and ended up in a psych ward 5 days where they injected me shit and almost tied me multiple times, then ended up in a rehab facility for 30 days. Been clean for almost 3 months and I can't stop thinking about using/fucking my life again.

I tried getting a prescription of clonazepam and only got 7 instead of 30. It reminds me the pain that I had to endure to get all the legal shit (doctor shopping. farmacies never having controlled substances), because the illegal shit is easy to get for me.