When was the last time you felt genuine happiness? Why did

i'm pretty happy now because my job's going well and my new boss likes me and lets me on different machines

When i graduated highschool. I know i didnt seeem like it on the outside but the inside felt like a ton of fireworks going off and i just could not be happier.

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>>37618627
>When was the last time you felt genuine happiness?
Never.

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>>37618647
I totally get you dude.

I thought something new would start off after highschool. I thought life would get better but it only got worse.

>>37618627
Actual genuine happiness with not a spec of depression in play? When i got my license damn near a decade ago.

>>37618627
The last time I was genuinely happy while being sober. I think it was during my friends' 11th birthday.

When I got laid years ago. Sex is the only thing that makes me feel alive. But afterwards I feel empty and depressed. Guess I am fucked no matter what.

A few weeks ago

I was high

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>>37618761
wow hang in there dude.

I had a guy that loved me and who I wanted to marry. He was too good for me and he realized it eventually.

I suppose its for the better in the end, his new girlfriend is probably really happy. I don't see how she couldn't be.

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Last time I felt happy? That'd have to be a year ago, back when I could still be considered a normalfag, I suppose. Until I realized that I wasn't one.

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>>37618627
Whenever I'm happy I still have my worries at the back of my head so I guess I haven't been in a long time.

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>>37618627
never. not even while i was a baby because every day of my childhood was spent in fear of my parents killing me

>>37618627
The days before I asked my oneitis out and got rejected. So 2-3 months ago

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>>37619122
Was he your first boyfriend?

Then i understand because girlsmale/female are alwys loyal to their first one.

About a month ago, when I was talking to a girl I really liked.

We don't talk to each other any more.

>>37618627
Last time I did 3-meo-pcp in a mental hospital

>>37618627
When it fully sunk in that I'm the owner of my dream car, couple days after buying it, after 5 years of working hard and saving rigorously.

>>37618627
Today. I held my newborn cousin and sang to her, and she was fucking adorable.

>>37618627
2 years ago
Fuck me

P.S i just deleted a wall of text that i just typed
I realized no one will care about my shit problems anyway so...

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>>37619561

Yea, I've never considered dating any other guy before or since. Its been years now and it only hurts more everyday.

I think I'm ruined. I don't know if this hole will ever go away. I'm spoiled goods.

When I'm 70 and childless and demented, I'll still be telling the story about how I almost married someone I loved.

Fuck i just want someone to listen to all my problems :'(

>>37619679
I'd care... I need to feel like I'm not miserable alone.

>>37619701
Thanks anon
It was about how hard it is to live with people who hates you and makes you feel you're good for nothing every fucking day
The same people who you're supposed to get along with nicely, care about
Ex.close relatives and family

They think so low of me ever since i was a child that i just got tired of it all and just let go and actually become what they think i am.

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>>37619679
Please post, i really care.

Take this as a present.

>>37618627
I've never felt it.

I'm not emotional enough to feel a lot of things.

Peeing with morning wood felt pretty good about 20 minutes ago though.

>>37618627
Probably the day Trump got elected. I was deliriously happy that day.

Writing tunes does it for me, it's what keeps me going.

When I thought that me and one of my female co workers had something. Turns out we didn't and I can't help myself for wanting to hate her.

>>37620539
That was a good day. Just a few days before I was thinking about stocking up to prepare for the killary apocalypse

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>>37618627
5 months ago. pic related

Probably this >>37620539

I'd fucking give anything to feel like that again.

I'm a 23yo kv and yesterday I had my first date with a girl. Nothing happened but it was nice, even though I was a bit disappointed because I was happy but I expected that kind of happiness to be more intense.

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One day when I was younger my mom and sister spontaneously took me to the beach. Stayed there for hours just swimming and being happy. The water was so clear and beautiful that day. I've grown older, moved away from home, dead end job and dangerously lonely. Don't think I'll feel that again.

>>37619821
Anon believe in the us who believe in you. Figth!

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Last genuine happiness?
When I got together with my crush almost 10 years ago.