Hi is there any way to make up for what i did? i dont understand

i wont make anymore threads
i shouldve kept up on my promise to hurt myself
to make you see I didn't mean anything bad towards you.
even subconsciously i didnt prioritize hurt feelings with other people
I liked spending every minute with coate shimo and cloud
theres no way you can believe me with what ive done
so ill try to change everything.

i wont make anymore threads crying
you probably thought they were all me just trying to get attention and thats what you made others believe
i hope to make you look good as much as possible with some upcoming threads, they wont involve you in anyway
they will just be to make me look bad. Then people will change their light on you
whoever got mad at you. they'll look at me with disgust
im too shallow to find an understanding of every feeling you have and to just wait things out doing nothing
so ill try to be a better person.

sorry coate
i already left the server and am not maintaining it anymore. everyone will leave eventually. i didnt mean to hurt your feelings.
i took what you said into consideration about dying
but i dont want to right now. i will make up as much as i should for it to you
indirectly

i took my pill and stopped having anxiety
so now im being less emotional
im glad i stopped crying

One day Rem will be dead
and you'll never remember them or even recognize who they are
I never meant to stalk you or gain information at all but i can understand why you think this. i dont have anything to live for without Aya again
so ill do my best to be a different person
ill never forget you though. I'll just be a ghost
and you can gain your reputation back
without being brought up of course

Thanks for being a friend
you were the closest thing i had to a parent in my life. Nobody can really take away this meaning from me ever.
even if it barely meant anything to you
my mind went blank
see you

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I ghosted all my real life friends.
I never asked that girl if she liked me.
Never did sports or anything either.
I regret not killing myself sometimes too but I can always change that.

>>37547525
I regret not killing myself too
but thats all in the past now
we have to wrong our rights with someone
no matter who
it has to replace the same feelings

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>>37547626
I don't think I've ever wronged someone, but people have wronged me before. A lot of my regrets are unfixable at this point.

Did you mean to say "right your wrongs"? If so, that's very noble.

>>37547673
I think ive wronged you many times
sorry
youve been wronged by too many people
but if you talked about the relationship you had with your family
id understand why you'd want to be there

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>>37547709
We have both hurt each other before, but sometimes that just happens with friends. I would never want to hurt you and I'm pretty sure you would never want to hurt me either.

I don't really care too much about my family, just never made that bond with any of them. I consider you and Casey and a couple other people as family more than them.

I don't understand the last part, where is "there"?

>>37547765
I dont think its healthy for your psyche to be there

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>>37547845
With my family? I don't think it's healthy for my psyche either, but I'm in a lot of other places that aren't healthy for my psyche either, but I can say that for both of us. Sometimes you're just stuck.

>>37547907
Then that server should benefit you
theres a lot of nice people there
also im getting a really bad headache
its messing with my concentration

>>37547907
i think im having a fever
the one time i try to do something actually meaningful

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>>37548366
>>37548483
You sure? Take your temperature and drink plenty of water. Last night I told someone I hurt myself and they wanted my friend to call the cops on me. He didn't but I'm still scared.

What is going on in this thr-

*backs out slowly*

>>37548529
My mom got mad at me for not going out with her
and im feeling fucking sick
I hate it here
I need to calm down
or ill feel the same way again. ill focus
you and me will do the work
we'll make myself look like the worst person in existence

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>>37548686
I'm not going to make you look bad, sorry, there's no way I'd let myself do that to you.

>>37548720
its so people dont hate him anymore
and they'll realize they were giving empathy to a cunt like me
It'll work I know it
i dont expect him to add me for it
but its making things better right?

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>>37548755
I dunno dude, seems like a weird plan. I don't think it's a good idea at all but I don't think I can change your mind on it.

>>37548813
Ah I shouldve said why
he was angry and felt like I was making threads on purpose to get revenge
if i make threads pretending to be someone hurt by me
like pretending i deleted you
it'd be ten times worse for me
people would all hate me and feel bad for ever being nice to a prick
that'll work
and there's other things we can do also
but mostly me
you can sit back and watch me hurt myself and laugh about it
its to make up for being an asshole to you
im so excited cod

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>>37548577
orangenil

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>>37548854
Still, a very weird plan but I guess it kinda makes sense. Surely there must be a better way though, that doesn't involve making everyone hate you?

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>>37548925
It doesnt matter
i just have to tell a few close friends what im doing or they'll think the upcoming events arent real
like casey and cloud probably shimo too
it'll definitely work
ill message them now before the effects of the pill wears off

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>>37548985
Um, okay, I'm just going to let you know right now this is a bad idea. What you do from this point on is up to you. Be careful.

>>37549070
You say everything i do is a bad idea
jeez
what could go wrong
it wont make him hate me right?
he might think im more shallow for it
but its okay if everyone likes him then right?

he said everyone hated him because of me.
we can change that. im going to shill that server i was kicked from too on discord
and make it look good
if i do this will it affect my standing with any of them say if i were to be found out on a different account/alt?

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>>37549125
I have no idea what will happen to be honest. If you make everyone hate your main they will probably hate your alt if they find out too.

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>>37548897
>>37548577
Anata wa, naraku no hana janai~