>19 year old student
>first semester of IT
>live alone with my mother who hates my guts
>haven't been to uni in weeks, lost track of nearly all the material, utterly demotivated to even attempt catching back up, shit's too hard
>perpetually tired, sleep 11-12 hours a day and still be sleepy the whole day
>do nothing but play wow and talk to online 'friends', no irl contacts
>usually depressed
>want to get a therapist but that requires me to talk to my insurance company to cover the costs and then call a bunch of therapists who have like 30 minutes allocated to taking calls per week
>way too anxious to even make a phone call
>too pussy to kill myself
Why am I such a worthless waste of space. I need help but even getting that takes a lot of effort. I just want to lay down and sleep and never wake up.
>first semster
>shits too hard
do you even try
post discord. if you want to talk, I'm here
>>37493632
it's not that hard really but i'm weeks behind and especially maths is way way harder compared to school
>>37493668
its different but you can definitely catch up
if you really dont think you can make it just chill one semester and then start all over again
>>37493686
i was thinking that i'd just cram it all in before finals and hopefully get through it kinda but maybe i do just need a fresh start, i made the mistake of chilling early and then i also overslept some days