I wish I knew how to understand and connect with people. I try

Well... have you tried being yourself?
Who gives a shit what people think you this is your life don't let other people ruin it for you. Get a therapist it helped just to have another person rationalize or tell you out loud instead of over a tibetan silk collecting forum

>>37370740
My advice is to just stop caring. You stay fixating an worrying about it like you are, and it'll grow with you, getting worse.

iktf

I'm rolling with it though, maybe once I feel I understand more about myself and the world I'll come back down and help people in the same way.

>>37370828
>>37370863
>I can't stop caring too much what other people think
>Have you tried caring less

It's not about know it's about feel

>>37370828
>just b urself

No further commentary.

>>37370740

probably some kind of anxiety

short of professional help all you can really do is keep reminding yourself that your fears don't line up with what you rationally know to be true and you should learn to ignore them mostly.

i mean, if you found out that your left eye sees everything in black and white, you probably wouldn't rely on it for information about color anymore, right? you can look at your instincts in social situations the same way; your instincts aren't good, but they're bad in a predictable way, so you can correct for them.

Stop giving a shit. Any time you start obsessing over that, go wank to some porn or play video games or watch anime or read a book. Distract yourself from negative thoughts until eventually it becomes second nature to repress them and the only time they surface is when you have insomnia and lay awake at night unable to sleep. At that point, the solution is to drink several shots of whiskey until you conk out.

This is how I have lived my life for the last 6 years and I have never been more content since reaching adulthood.

>>37370896
Just get some fucking hobbies jesus christ. If you have time to waste on obsessive navel gazing then you have time to be building model ships or practicing an instrument or something. Even watching anime is a hobby. When I was in college I was watching like 20+ anime every season to fill my free time because the alternative was lying in bed fretting over the future and how uncertain and scary it was. Fuck that. Stay up til 2 AM watching shitty battle harems until your eyes get bloodshot then fall asleep dreaming of anime tiddies. Your life will improve.

>>37370932
>>37370828
I HAVE tried professional help. I see a therapist at school as well as at home, and I get an antidepressant (Effexor) from a psychiatrist. I feel just as shit as always, for the most part.

Mind you, I might be feeling extra shit right now because I suddenly stopped my antidepressant a few days ago after running out, but still.

>>37370740
I bet you're what, like 19 or 20?

>>37371065
I don't even spend my time worrying about shit. I obsessively refresh news sites, webcomics, Reddit, and 4chan, even when they couldn't possibly have changed any since I last looked. I'd take being able to focus on video games over this.

>>37371083
It's not just something that just changes one day, or that you can know exactly, or has one cause, it might be a personality trait, maybe the way you think is too negative or you get jealous easily, or your mom didn't hug you enough. It helps being aware of what's going on in your mind, and being logical about things and trying not to over generalise or freak out over every minor inconvenience. You need something to fall back on, like books, or making stuff, or exercise. People like it when you can maintain yourself, and have skills, it sucks to say because some of us humans are worthless, or feel that way, but that is no reason to give up. The world wasn't set up to fail us, we just got messed up somewhere along the way, not always by fault of our own, so we just need to get over that and try to find some form of happiness. You'd be surprised what sort of things you are good at, or what you like. I never thought I'd get into music but I've been discovering more stuff I like and I have a few favourite bands now. Maybe you have aspergers?

>>37371263
I feel like I don't, because if anything I'm hypersensitive to people rather than insensitive. And even if I did, there's no point, since it's not really something that can be treated to my knowledge.

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