What was the biggest mistake of your life, /r9k/? >about 2

>smoke weed
>turns out I am schizophrenic

Yeah it went all downhill from there

>>37316550
why haven't you killed yourself?
honestly
my mom is the only one that cared for me i will kill myself when she dies cuz i have no other reason to live just waiting so i don't give her pain

>>37316631
this feel is my feel

>>37316578
How did you realise that?

>>37316631
TFW dead mom
Just fuk me up lads

Welp.

There wasn't one big mistake that fucked up everything for me. It's been more like a bunch of little to moderate sized mistakes that made me what I am today.

>>37316767
There's been a couple study that suggest that if you have dormant schizophrenia, that smoking weed will cause it start manifesting itself and you're pretty fucked from them. Nothing concrete but take it for what it is.

>>37316550
Got caught by my mom wearing and sniffing my sisters panties. Got kicked out after they looked through my room and found others. Pretty much a downslope since then.

>>37317287
LMAO. I hope your sister was at least hot you incestuous degenerate.

>15
>already thrown away everything by confessing I want to be a girl to family
>have nothing to lose
>friends say they'll support me if i transition
>have the money for hormones
>decide to do a complete 180 and man up instead
>throw away everything feminine, work out hard every day, try to be as masculine as possible
>didn't work of course because that never works and is a massive waste of time
>started hrt at 24
>turns out I had above average testosterone to top it off
>went from 5'9 to 6'1 between 15-20
>shoulders got way more broad in that time
>full beard that costs thousands of dollars for laser to remove

Why did I listen to my parents, my pastor, and the ignorant world about my problem? Why didn't I listen to my own feelings, why didn't I listen to the people who've been through what I went through and made it? I could have been a totally passable girl

>>37317312
nah she is like 5'4" and 160lbs

>>37317384
You should have killed yourself instead.

>>37316550
Not your fault. Faggot could have left a message. I never answer calls from numbers I don't recognize.

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>friend and i at work go to a jewelry store buy my mom and friend's mom a alex and ony bracelet
>mother's day 2013 friend comes over said are you coming over to give my mom a present
>no i have a feeling that i'm going to have a seizure
>you look fine
>no
>i finally go to his mom's house give her the bracelet
>she bitches about it i don't wear jewelry
>i give her the receipt to it
>bitches about $34 is all i'm worth
>tell her it's what i bought my mom
>i go to my friend's room i brought my ps3 and played god of war 1 HD version
>i beat the game
>as i was driving home i had a seizure i crashed into a tree
>both of my friend's moved to a different state and town
>friend came over and stole a bunch of my video games

pic somewhat related what my car was just no spoiler and a dent over by the front headlight

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>have this issue where I can only fap to a porn video if the actress looks like someone I know IRL
>have a favorite video saved to my phone of a girl who looks just like my QT coworker
>at work one day, telling QT coworker about the shitty upcoming weather we're supposed to have
>for some reason she doesn't believe me, so I pull out my phone to show her
>through some kind of subliminal fuckery, my thumb moves past the weather app and opens up my browser
>porn video of lookalike porn actress is already loaded up, and she 's got a dick in her while she's blowing a monster-sized dildo
>coworker badly pretends that she didn't see the video as I fumble for what seems like forever to close my browser and lower my volume
>I quit out of shame 2 days later


It was a good fucking job, too.

>>37317287
You bastard, did you post on here about it? That sounds familiar

>being too stupid to know how to keep bitcoins during 09 when they were literally fucking cents.
>being too stupid to actually study in uni now i have a degree i cant back up and have to study in my own time for shit i should already know
>letting myself go

Not taking college seriously enough the first time then dropping out

>>37317503
>5'4" and 160lbs
This excites me.

>>37317809
>>friend came over and stole a bunch of my video games
Was this before or after he moved

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Not studying enough for my high school driving test in nj. I got just 6 points away from having a permit but i just brushed it off thinking I didn't need to study.

Then after i failed I didn't tell my parents the truth so I didn't go to some driving school because i was afraid it would cost too much and i didn't understand that 100 was exactly too much money because they always talk about being in deep water with bills so I thought idtake the plunge and get my permit next year.

Im 19 now and i still havent gotten my permit. I want to drive so badly and driving would solve so many problems, I could go out on my own, i can meet up with potential gfs/bfs, i could have a blast in a miata but that damn nj driving test, theres so many questions i dont know where to start

>freshman year of college
>Kv
>Weird girl wants to fuck me for some reason
>Turn her down for no reason

>27
>Still kv

I fell for the STEM meme. This comment was not original.

>>37317858
>>I quit out of shame 2 days later
You are a monstrously large retard. She didnt even react to it, she didnt care. and sure as fuck wouldnt know it was supposed to be her.

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>>37317142
Pretty much this. Nothing life threatening or serious.

>Watched anime and stayed in my room the entire 2015, failing all my papers and setting me back one year to completing my degree.

>Didn't ask the only girl who has looked at me for more than two seconds in the past ten years;

I fucking should have, I could have fucked her and maybe gained some superficial self confidence. Now I'm in my 20s and I'm legitimately afraid of women.

>>37317287
This reminds me, recently I sniffed my cousin's socks and I'm half convinced she saw me because she seems a bit distant since I did it.

If she saw me she will tell others and they will tell and it will spread like fire. I will be so fucked. I really did a number this time, boys!

>>37317287
didnt you make a thread about it?

>>37317245
>>37316578

My father smoked weed and developped schizophrenia, you're not alone

>>37318546
No that was another anon I guess. Ive never made a thread about it.

>>37318299
>bfs/gfs
>miata
kek
KEK

>>37317809
Wtf? Were you already seizure prone? And this bitch was so entitled she bitched about a gift you gave her to your face?

I started pressing in on the blood vessel in my neck until I get lighted head and sometimes pass out back in 7th grade.

I still fucking do it at 27, I have a huge bruise on my neck, and probably have brain damage.

>>37317384
no you idiot. you fucking made the right choice. if u sawed your dick off you would have killed yourself within the next couple years

>>37317384
you're an idiot, im completely feminine body because of all the soy milk and estrogen loaded water we have. You should be happy with your own body you moron.