who here has a self-destructive personality? im constantly fucking

>>37192173
>im constantly fucking myself in my relationship

oh fuck off normie
you are still better than most of us

>>37192173
I barely do anything at all.

I'm going to fail most of my classes at uni on my first fucking semester, I never failed a single class on high-school so it's not like I'm dumb, I just can't fucking get a book and do exercises and study.

I really have no idea on how to change, maybe I'm on the wrong course and should try something completely different, I just don't want to be useless in the future, but right now I'm a completely useless piece of shit that can barely get out of the bed.

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>26 neet khv
>have self destructed my uni education, jobs, the one chance I had to get a girl, my family no longer likes me due to burning bridges to self destruct
>spend every day thinking about everything I regret
>wish I had a time machine
>life is progressively getting worse and worse as i continue to ruin my happiness

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>school ended at the end of April
>took a week off, it's fine, you got good grades
>another week, it's okay you helped your mom move your grandpa out. Hey, you got an interview!
>another week, it's cool, you filed some applications to fast food joints, it's alright. so what if that professor who wanted to help you hasn't responded to you. She said she was getting chemo....
>fourth week: holy fuck i gotta apply for research positions next year and try to find some lab to volunteer for the summer and get a job holy fuck why am I such a lazy failure
>get drunk
>shit post on /r9k/ about procrastination

>>37192232
fuck bud i know that feel, i think about the time machine thing and what i would do differently every single day
>>37192275
feelsbadman

>1.78 GPA in high school
>never did homework
>got GED
>university still accepts me because of my SAT score
>drop out in the first semester

i'm nearly done, lads

>>37192275
Update: I stayed up all night writing professional sounding emails and two professors just emailed me within the hour saying that they want to meet up.

Moral: I believe in you, robots. Good luck in all your adventures.
>>37192461
You can start fresh at another university. Or do something entirely different. You don't need university.

>>37192173
me

i cant have nice things and i hate everybody including myself and this life constantly

sometimes i try to cry so i can feel better then i think if i cry i get some new strength but i cant produce tears

I have borderline personality disorder and once stabbed myself in front of someone just because they said they had to go

Shit fucking sucks and no medicine works

>>37194142
I have this and im a huge literal whore and attention whore and neet.

>>37194193
how old are you? I honestly don't see myself living much longer with this

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>>37192232
>tfw the same at age of 23
right behind you man

>>37192173
>tfw find girls to talk to
>tfw make them like me, attached to me
>find creative and new ways to break it all down just to see what would happen
Why do I do this. I met only one girl who made me want to stop it and be with her but she had a bf already.

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>>37195621
fuck man
i couldn't relate more to this

it's always the same story for me
drop uni
go back there, make new friends
take action to lose friends
drop uni

only one girl i had serious feelings for had bf already when i met her
i think we want things we can't have and when they seem obtainable we subconsciously sabotage them so they become unavailable