I can't decide. Should I run a pipe from my exhaust pipe

>>37189589

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AZvFuIQekTw

>>37189589
Ok I'll bite.

Neither. What's wrong OP?

Stop what your doing right now. You are leaving behind your one chance at happiness and won't get another. You can lead a fulfilling life.

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>>37189589

Not advocating an-hero, but you fun fact

>>37189711
I have mental problems that prevent me from living a normal life, despite my honest and genuine best efforts, and I'd rather die than continue living with the pain and stress. I've been fired from three jobs in the past year due to these problems and I can't pay my bills.

I live in the U.S. with absolutely abysmal healthcare in a right to work state so I have no recourse.

Particularly right now, I've started having nightmares. I've always dreamed quite vividly, but I've never had nightmares. Now it's every night and I'm at the point where I am terrified to go to sleep. I don't want to continue waking up in cold sweats screaming.

>>37189589

I had to take a class about this topic... the instructor said if you are suicidal, you are afraid of the future or living in the past and you should get over it.

so whats wrong?

>>37189771
Do something online and move to a former eastern bloc country. Average income there is like $500 bucks a month.

>>37189771

I'm sorry to hear that, is there anybody close whom you could talk to in person to try to make you feel better? or are we it?

>>37189771
I'm sorry to hear that OP.

What mental problems do you have in particular?

>>37189831
I literally don't know what I would do online or how to live anywhere but the place I do now.

>>37189833
I do, and I've talked to them about it. But at a certain point I've said all there is to say. And it's just a never ending cycle of tryinfg, failing, and being depressed. I don't really get anything out of inflicting my same problems on the people close to me over and over.

>>37189874
I have Aspergers, and it was drilled into me my entire childhood to never let it be a crutch, which I took to heart. I tried damn hard to live a normal life. I've cultivated close friends and confidants and healthy family ties. I've had meaningful relationships. I graduated college.

But I suffer from agoraphobia symptoms. Not the open spaces bit, but the crowds. A Round people I just can't handle myself and will go into panic attacks and literally break down crying. I was stupid enough to go into I.T. work so my jobs are all in offices. No workplace yet trusts me to work from home and I don't have any developer talents.

I've tried all the exposure therapy in the world. It's a big part of my life trying to deal with it. But it just keeps getting worse. I'm very tired of failing and breaking down over and over. I'd really just rather die.

>>37189961
>I've tried all the exposure therapy in the world. It's a big part of my life trying to deal with it. But it just keeps getting worse. I'm very tired of failing and breaking down over and over.
why do you think it's getting worse? what aspect of being around people makes you anxious?

>>37190019
>what aspect
In a word, sensory overload. Trying to track everyone and everything around me at all times. And even regular things like lound noises, lights, colors and whatnot. It's just too much. It's not something I can just turn off and ignore.

And I know it's getting worse because I can handle less and less as time goes on. I'm 25 now, and when I was younger I was less aware of things in the world. But as I get older I know more, and it's more to track and it all just stacks on itself.

Cannabis helps, allows me to choose the things to focus on to a degree, but I live in a place where it is illegal and losing these jobs so often means I frequently have to go off of it to pass drug tests. I don't trust my subterfuge skills to fake it.

But even still, it only ameliorates things doesn't solve anything at all.

>>37189589
>2005

Too new. It'll just give you a headache and maybe make you throw up. A tank of nitrogen is the ticket for this style of an hero if'n ya wanna.

>>37189771
>Right to work state
Which one? I'm in Arizona and I hate that bullshit.

>>37189961
>I tried damn hard to live a normal life. I've cultivated close friends and confidants and healthy family ties. I've had meaningful relationships. I graduated college

You didn't try though. You DID live a life. You've done the best you could given your circumstances and I'm proud af OP.

>>37190099
i was going to suggest trying anxiety medication but thought you would be against it in terms of it being a crutch. if you're willing to try weed, have you tried benzos? those are legal.

>>37190192
TY. I'll probably fuck it up if I try gas, I suppose the bridge is the more attractive option then.

>>37190218
TX. It's a load of shit. "What if we deregulate everything"

Well then workers have no rights and you become disposable.

>>37190228
TY I guess. It's been a slog and I can't imagine doing it for another X years until I die naturally.

>>37190243
Not against it fundamentally, but every medication I've tried has fucked me up badly in terms of my everyday emotions, not to mention the aforementioned problems with healthcare.

Also, I have a bit of a complex with doctors. The last time I sought help, the therapist told me he tries to heal his patients by guiding them back to christ. I'm still fucked up about it.

>>37189805
> you should get over it.
WOAH! WISH I HAD THOUGHT OF THAT BEFORE!

>>37190344
How tall is this bridge? You're looking for a fall >60 feet if you want a >95% of dying.

>>37190344
>Not against it fundamentally, but every medication I've tried has fucked me up badly in terms of my everyday emotions, not to mention the aforementioned problems with healthcare.
but have you tried the benzos? i ended up being a shut in for years. i was on antidepressants + benzos in different combinations the whole time. only started going outside again regularly once i got off the everything and then got back on benzos. as i see it, antidepressants and other psych drugs are death because they fuck with your brain chemistry in strange ways but when used sparingly, at the lowest dosage possible, anxiety meds can really help.

>Also, I have a bit of a complex with doctors. The last time I sought help, the therapist told me he tries to heal his patients by guiding them back to christ. I'm still fucked up about it.
i don't blame you. psychology in general is largely bullshit and they don't have the answers, though your experience was even worse than average. just go for medication and try to deal with it your own way. if sensory overload is your problem, i don't see how talk therapy will help very much and exposure is what happens as you long as you actually live your life. if the doctor tries to force bullshit on you, just walk out and try someone new. you're in control.

i really think the medication might help. there are certainly side effects but the main issue is excessive drowsiness. if you're using cannabis regularly, i assume that you have learned to deal with the fatigue or that it might even help you because it slows you down a bit.

i don't really know if it's a long term solution, quite honestly, but if you're planning suicide right now it might, at the very least, prolong your life and allow you to enjoy it more than you do right now for a while.

>>37190344
>I can't imagine doing it for another X years until I die naturally

I can. You've held up since your childhood. The symptoms might get worse, but whether you find treatment or not, I do believe that you'll live a long and successful life.

I don't know much about medication/substances, so I can't help you there. The other anon seems to know his shit though. I just know that words probably don't mean shit in terms of actually helping you, but it's worth a try.

Goodluck OP.

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Lelelel skank faec

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Cecil dreeeme

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I love women. I am so grateful to have grown up with sisters so I learned how to treat and act around them. Which is to say the same way as anyone else.

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Are cosplaying titcows sluts?

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>>37190840
Should I buy left something on her wishlist? It'd be the tits to get some personalized pics back tbqh

>>37190866
No don't do anything like that.

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Also is she thicc y / N

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>>37190924
How come? It would be something considering how many sets of her i've fapped to for feee

>>37190954
Use that money to develop a skill or hobby to be interesting and use as an avenue to be in the world and interact with real women.

Also what is that ladies name? She is very beautiful.

>>37190954

Because she isn't going to give you shit sperg lord. That has never worked.

Look at her shit with Adblock off if you want to be reasonably supportive.

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>>37190993
But I already am attradrive to women, just not single, attractive, legal white ones. Google bunny queen modeling.

>>37190344
If you have the money you could take a trip to Norway.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Preikestolen

I'm in a similar situation OP, just sticking around until I run out of money in 4-5 months.
Can't decide between the Norway option or Fentanyl OD + a benzo + https://en.wikibooks.org/wiki/Suicide/Toxification/Antiemetic_regimen

Good luck if you end up going through with it.

>>37189771
Move to the Commonwealth of Massachusetts. We provide healthcare to those who cannot afford it and we are not a "right to work" state.

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>>37191019
Senpai every single cosplayer and/or girl with a tumblr account always posts previews whenever someone buys them something off their list. It's proof to other girls on their that they're wanted. Some of them even do additional private pics as thanks like pic related.

Run the exhaust to your cabin while driving towards a bridge, that way you pass out and drive off the bridge spectacularly, and after the coroner determines you succumbed to CO2 people will think it was just an accident.
Plus you will have less chance to pussy out.

>>37191196
This desu, commit suicide in the most ridiculous way possible to confuse the coroner and anyone who witnesses it.
Does anyone have the screenshot about the fursuit parasail police chase suicide pan?

>>37191263
Plan, even.

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Also OP left or right in your pic?

>>37191302
Right has the better curve of her butt. But Left is smiling and looks like she's having fun. Hard call.

I love both of them and am just glad they provided this for us.

Also I'm like 80% sure I got a picture with them at A-Kon. But that brings up bad memories I literally dented the hotel walls after freaking out from all the people there and slamming my head against the wall. 0/10 will never attend a con ever again.

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>>37191331
Right is somewhat more mellow most of the time and also has the better body imo. Also, since it's from the side it's a bit of a bad angle to see her expression.

It's a shame you didn't find any other cosplayers to invite back to your room.

Same two btw

>>37191138
Yo, got any more porn of this bitch?

>>37191302
post more [(original)original]

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>>37191557
Yeup I so do.
>>37191725
Robot is such shit

>>37190840
>"I love women"
>Posts one of the lowest and worst types of women just above professional pornstars and hookers

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>>37191756
There's nothing wrong with loving cosplayer as long as you don't fall in love with them

>>37191744
>Yeup I so do.

Post'em.

>>37189589
Personally, when/if I kill myself I'll probably end up with a method that's reversible in case for some reason I change my mind. You never know.

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>>37191851
You got it bossman senpai

>>37191995
Good shit, man. Good shit.

Nice, nice.

>>37191995
Is that a inverted nipple? Those are rare.

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>>37192009
What are your thoughts on her big FAT CAT TATS

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>>37192022
Yeah her nipples are really small and her areaolas are light too

>>37192031
>>37192069
She's so pale it's amazing.

>>37189589
Diving off a bridge is instant death senpai don't think about the bottom like water think of them as rocks because the force applied on your body when you hit the water is nearly if not the same

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>>37192082
As all white women should be, rather than tanned

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Basically she needs to do more non-cosplay stuff like pic related and the last pic

>>37189589
If you wanna kill your self just smoke a blunt and think about it.

That's all the advice I can give.

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Also she got ultra thick a few months back.

>>37192445
Yeah, she's not bad.

She'd be a great fuck if she happened to be a dom.

>>37189589
I wish you wouldn't do it, OP. If you keep pushing on past the dusky condition you're in right now, you'll see a much better side to life. Autismo here.

>>37189589
>>37193227
listen to him anon 54321