Anyone else here afraid to get completely drunk because you might

No but I am afraid I'll do it when psychotic, I already hurt myself several times

>>36838626
i actually hope for it. one day when i'm drunk i'll have the balls and the lack of wherewithal to just do it.

That has never stopped me. Sadly, a hangover is all I'm rewarded with.

>kill yourself while out of it
Be careful. My best friend did that and I'm sure he would regret it if he was still alive.
I hope you feel better soon. Don't leave close ones behind!

>>36838825
I don't particularly want to end it now, but when I get completely drunk I black out and I keep drinking during that hours long blackout

I might have 0 control over what I do

It doesn't help that whenever I do drink, I get even more calm and depressed

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>>36838626
I never drank, so I have no idea where my limits are or when I'll feel it.
What do 2 bottles of beer usually do, because that's the most I ever drank in one sitting.

>>36838825
I think you're baiting but either way, fuck off

>>36838825
your best friend absolutely wouldn't regret it and you're partially the reason for his suicide

>>36838973
If you're a white guy of northern/Eastern European decent who weighs 200lb, it does nothing

>>36838626
I'm a happy drunk so no. Everything gets better for me when drunk.

>>36838988
I don't care what you think

>>36839000
I'm not.

>>36838901
Maybe you should drink less for a wile?

>>36838626
This is why i drink as much as i do

My suicide plan has long been a fifth of vodka and a 9mm. Part of why I don't drink anymore. Plus the calories and the estrogen.

>>36839008
I'm nowhere near 200lb.

>>36838626
No but I had the exact same fear when I lived alone in 5th story and wanted to get high all ghe time.


I remember one time I ate aome shrooms and got high and then I was just standing in the window and telling myself loudly DON'T BE A FUCKING RETARD MAN WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU BE JUMPING OUT THIS WINDOW

how are you not happier when you're drunk?
the fuck are you doing wrong?