Any other anons have PTSD here? I hate it. My family keeps asking

>>36810212
What was the event

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>>36810238
My best friend took her own life when she was 11 and I was 12. I found her first. I won't go into any more detail than that.

yes I have PTSD, mostly at peace with it at this point

it's really put my brain through a blender and lead to a shitty existence

>>36810258
Hate to break it to ya but... It wasn't a suicide.

>*Teleports behind you*
Now it's time to finally tie up the loose ends
>*Slice*
Heh, nothing personal kid.

>>36810258
do you want to talk, anon?

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>>36810721
I mean what is there to talk about? I've been in therapy for years and it hasn't done shit. I've pretty much given up and let it consume me.

My trauma has completely fucked my entire life up, as a result I have severe depression, as well as my entire view on relationships being skewed.
My nerves are shot, I no longer react in a normal way when I am scared or startled. And I have dreams where things similar to the trauma occur and they fuck me up bad
I just wish I was dead tee bee aitch

>tfw my ex has PTSD and he pushed me away

Should I keep trying to talk to him and support him anyway? I don't want to be an annoyance but he's so alone in this.

What do?

>>36810925

Does he want to talk? If so you can talk to him.

If he doesn't want to talk, then just leave him alone.

That's what I think.

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>>36810212
Go back to tumblr you troglodyte

>>36810938
He seems to appreciate it when I contact him but otherwise he doesn't pursue it, I initiate every time.

I also have PTSD from many events.

Medical marijuana is in my case the best treatment. It has been a huge boon to me.

It doesn't make me not have PTSD but it helps to such an extreme degree it's hard for me to express it.

Been taking it for years now with consistent results. My only complaint is the predatory pricing.

Haven't had a flashback in ages. Never start freaking out anymore. It's incredible.

>>36810212
ill rape the ptsd outta u bbgirl

>>36810956

I guess you could just check in from time to time to see how he's doing, chat a bit, etc.

It's up to you. Don't overthink it though.

>>36810212
I have PTSD from watching my mother commit suicide in front of me and then my father and company sexually abuse me, but I don't mention anything of PTSD because it's a meme now

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I don't have ptsd because I'm not a little bitch faggot like you are.

>>36810991
I hate that. Anytime you mention PTSD people just think you're a joke. The real thing is a fucking monster of a disorder. It destroys you.

>>36810805
I relate, especially the part about pushing people away. I don't even talk to people anymore because of it.

the day you move out is the day you move on. just get on with your life and your mind will follow suit.

>>36810738
Therapists never worked for me on a personal level, it's easier to get to know people, make friends with them, not pay some quack to listen to your problems.

I'm not even saying you need to talk to me specifically, just getting a small group of people who care about you would be helpful.

>>36810212
Yeah went through a pretty abusive childhood (stepdad was a criminal psychopath) and still suffer from PTSD from it (24 now.) At this point it mostly manifests in insomnia I average 3.5 restful hours /night. For the most part my life is in order otherwise but I still go to therapy every week and am on pretty heavy drugs for sleep. Have a steady relationship, an okay job where I can work from home mostly, and a handful of friends but I feel so held back from my potential because of all the years I couldn't even sit through class or function normally enough to work a normal job. I find lately going to the gym a lot really helps me even though I'm just drugging myself with the endorphins. What do you do to get through the days anon?

>>36810976
Yeah guess it's the best thing to do.

Really do miss him. Said he couldn't deal with a relationship because of his problems and that he didn't want me involved in all that. I respect and understand that but it does make me sad that things couldn't be different

PTSD is such an awful thing to have, nobody deserves it

>>36811063
I have the same. I am tormented by nightmares. I usually get 4 hours of sleep a night, usually less because I get scared of sleeping. What job do you work at?

And GOD do I relate to that. The being held back from your potential bit. A lot of people praise me for my memorization skills. Yet I can barely get above a C on a test. And I have become obsessed with playing it safe. I can't remember the last time I took a genuine risk.

Generally I just power through it. I just use my strength to push through it all. But some days it breaks me.

>>36811042
trauma changes the way your brain responds to things on a fundamental level, you cant really ever get over it completely, especially not by just 'getting over' it

>>36811186
I started doing code review and data entry for a family company and have been working on projects through basically nepotism since. I'm starting to work on projects in brand development for a family company and starting a small side project with a few friends. I used to work a support staff job at a high end menswear store which was nice and low interaction but they moved me up to sales and I couldn't really handle it so quit and went back to the code review.

Have you tried taking anything for sleep? I'm not sure if it's really helped me or not but at least I'm out for 5+ hours when I take it and the sleep is usually dreamless. Do you do see a therapist at all?

>>36810738
Stop being an edgy faggot seeking attention. You're probably that one faggot who acts sad all the time just waiting for someone to ask what happened so you grt sympathy for being a lil bitch

>>36811263
I wish I was as lucky. I can't make it through college. Too many people. And I don't have any friends in high places is it were. I have crippling anxiety thanks to this stupid disorder, I barely leave the house

I take sleep meds but it only helps for me to get to sleep. But nightmares almost always happen.

>>36811351
Theres jobs out there that can be therapeutic and low interaction like kitchen jobs attract a lot of damaged people like us or recovering addicts, ect... I used to bartend and even though it was busy the interaction was so transient and I was so busy working I found it very fun.

Or if you can get really into working out personal training is pretty easy just tell people what to do and not to eat shitty plus you get payed to hang out at the gym and pursue your hobby in your free time. I personally got into powerlifting after trying a bunch of other gym stuff and I found I feel much better the days where I do it and it's opened a really safe interaction space to make new friends where the interactions are very controlled and task oriented.

I had a really hard time in College too and left half way through and although I probably would have better job opportunities with a degree at no point have I ever felt really held back by not having it.

I find for me personally going to therapy weekly is really helpful to have someone keeping track of my status it's not like I feel like it's helpful every time and sometimes I feel it's a total waste but if I look back at my life before I started to now I can really see the stability. I live in a socialist country so it's covered by the government but I'm sure you have resources through your college?

>>36811453
I've heard bar tending is fun. People just freak me out. I honestly want to be a truck driver. Almost no interaction with people and I get payed to do next to nothing. Seems like a dream.

Can you just get a job as a personal trainer? I thought you needed a degree for that.

I'm unfortunately in the good ole USA, where, to get a good future it'll cost you about the equivalent of your own private jet. And I'm thinking about starting therapy again. Last time was so hard though. EMDR is a bitch to go through. It helped but god it felt like I had to stick my hand in a fire and pretend I wasn't being burned.

I just do my best to try and ignore my history of abuse by refusing to talk about it ever.
Other than the nightmares, occasional bouts of waking up screaming, terrible fear whenever I hear strangers in the house or raised voices, depression (which I'm currently having minor relief from due to heavy distraction) and anger issues, it's working pretty well.

>>36810258
>seeing someone you cared about dead destroys your whole mind
I'm sorry OP, but I can't say I understand how you feel. I've thought about death my whole life and accepted it. I've always wanted to be immortal so I could live as long as possible despite watching my loved ones die around me. Maybe it will be different if I experience something similar to what you have, but I honestly doubt it. I hope things get better for you OP.

>>36811644
I was only a kid at the time. She was also all I had. My parents didn't care and I was bullied by my entire grade school and middle school class. It was like watching the last piece of hope I had left get stomped on and thrown in my face. It was unimaginablely painful