Robots, I just came back from a public psychiatric hospital,

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Nice to read you back, anon

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>>36774623
What was your primary drug in the spiral?
What medication (if any) are you on now?
What's your plan moving forward?

>>36775744
Heroin is the answer to all three.

I'm sorry man :(
good to have you back

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>>36775802
Cheers.
To better times, anon.

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>>36775744
I used to take weed, edible weed, mollies, acid, 2CB, tried some coke but didn't like it, ritalin, clonazepam, tramadol, DXM, dramamine, and lots of alcohol.

I liked to mix lots of shit. My favorite combos were tramadol, clonazepam, alcohol and weed; and weed, edible weed, acid and mollies

>What was your primary drug in the spiral?
I think it was clonazpema, tramadol and alcohol most days, and acid, mollies and weed on the weeekends, and weed most days.

>>36775802
I wanted to tried heroin once but I've hear it's hell.

>>36775829
>>36775842
Thanks.

>>36774623
wow

originally and sincerely with love

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>>36775929
welcome back my man, hope you're motivated now.
How was the hospital?
>what was nice?
>what was hell?

>>36776082
inquiring minds want to know!

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>>36775929
Are you completely off all benzo(and related) drugs?
I've been effectively a vegetable since I stopped taking clonazepam and ambien.

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>>36776082
>what was nice?
Nothing was fucking nice, it's was literally a psychiatric fucking ward with loonies walking all around screaming or shitting in the shower. Black people are like 20% of the population where I live, but 85% of the other crazy people were niggers, the nurses were niggers, the male guys that grab you and tie you in your bed were also niggers.

They injected me like 8 times and I'm afraid of needles and they always injected me in the same fucking place, everytime I cried in pain.

The food is shit, everyone thinks you're crazy and treat you like you're crazy, schizophrenic people look like retards, literally you can't tell a retard from a severely schizophrenic person.

Being "crazy" is not fun. Not only you see, hear and smell shit that isn't there, you have racing irrational thoughts that stun you, I kept coming back and forth into reality, I felt confused the whole time. I've also had severe depression for years, already tried suicide twice, ended up in ER twice.

>>36776192
Yes, I didn't take the benzo for long though, I took it for like 2-3 months. My problem is that I like mixing everything all at once because I hate tolerance.

>I've been effectively a vegetable
See a psychiatrist. Cognitive theraphy with a psychologist helped me considerably more than just taking meds. I'm taking lexapro and seroquel for sleeping.

i am a 100% pure virgin khhv drugless guy desu

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>>36776365
>what was nice?
Forgot to mention, obviously I heard and saw crazy shit. I saw patients walking all around the fucking room all the fucking night for hours. Patients screaming, speaking tongues, talking to themselves, being aggressive, shitting themselves in the bed, peeing right there in the middle of the room, doing weird shit with their hands.

There were lots of fucking scratches in the wall everywere full of shit that didn't make sense. I saw the words "Jesus" and the number "13" everywhere along with crosses or religious symbols or symbols that didn't make sense. Lots of patients cry when they give them their pills. Me myself didn't want to take any pills or medicine, I whined when they gave me shit. Nothing is optional, if they have to inject you something, they fucking will do it, even if they have to tie you up or if 5 people have to grab you.

Lots of loonies were obsessed with "god" or "jesus christ", it was a recurring theme.

>>36776365
If I tried to tell the psychiatrist what was going on in my head it would get garbled in the communication.
He would take away the drugs that make me feel like a stable but non-functional loony and put me on drugs that wonderful fuzzy nothing which allows me to be objectively more human and will one day let me quietly allow me to deliver myself in my garage.
Do you honestly think there is a remotely plausible path to a better for most people or were you just not in all that bad of shape/are a huge outlier?

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>>36776466
>anti-religious psychiatrists backed by secular """state""
>faith is what makes someone insane
boy they got to you, huh?

>>36775929
awwww
>drugs

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>>36776493
>Do you honestly think there is a remotely plausible path to a better for most people or were you just not in all that bad of shape/are a huge outlier?

I don't think, I LEARNED that our way of thinking is broken, and that cognitive therapy and a good outlook in life can help, as much retarded as it sounds. Sure, it might not help for severe shit like schizophrenia. In my specific case, I can't take meds like benzos because I wanna chug the whole thing with alcohol and weed and other shit. The shrinks basically told me they can't give me shit, only anti-depressants and some anti-psychotics, and that I shouldn't rely on pills for anything.

I had a drug induced psychotic episode that lasted days, I'm not a schizo myself (at least not yet). I'm just 23. I've learned that an unchecked mental disease can turn into schizophrenia easily, like having untreated severe depression for years. I saw lots of crazy women that were there for depression but were actually crazy. I knew the diagnosis of all the other patients because they sat us together every morning, and everyone had to say their diagnosis. Half the people can't even tell their name, let alone their diagnosis, the nurse just says "hey anon, remember, you have schizophrenia" or some shit like that.

I'm an addict myself, I have the impulse of taking shit that distorts my mind even if I'm fully aware that it's dangerous for me. It's kinda complicated to explain, everyone see it as a moral deficiency, the truth is I can't take a beer because I end up doing other shit nonstop.

>>36776514
This doesn't follow the logical path of my post.