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>senior in HS
>never had a girlfriend, never been on a date, kissless virgin
>made a tinder and got quite a few matches, /fa/ tells me I have a handsome face, over 6ft, basically just not ugly
>never been to a dance, not even senior prom
>have a dream last night
>its about a girl from one of my classes who I've never talked to
>somehow I ask her to prom and she says yes
>she seems as excited as I do
>time goes by until prom, forget about it because thats how dreams work
>prom night comes around and I don't even think about it, go and get drunk with the same friend group I have shadowed for 5 years like a normal saturday night, feel alone but happy because I'm drunk
>next morning see girl crying in a vision because thats how dreams work
>I ditched her on prom
>She blocked my number
>She seems sad all the time
>see her at the store with her friends
>she sees me and starts crying softly
>go behind her friend group, and apologize, tell her I am so sorry, feel genuinely bad, just really fucking bad
>tell her we need to talk and she says "I know"
>feel hope that we can make this better, feel loved because she is willing to work through problems in a relationship, but also feel bad because I made someone feel as lonely and horrible as I've felt all these years
>wake up
>realize I've never experienced love in real life
>heart actually hurts
>can't drown it in apathy this time
>getting matched with tinder sluts doesn't help my confidence anymore, realize I just want to feel love once in my life
>don't know if that is possible
FUCK. Anyone else here only felt love in dreams? It is fucking wonderful, I understand why so many works of art are dedicated to the artist's love for someone else. I just wish I could experience it in real life, but I am scared I may be destined to never have another person love me.
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>senior in high school
>all this bitching
You've got time kid. Quit wasting your life on the internet and talk to people in real life.
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>>36491850
I do. I get invited and go to parties full of normies, girls know my name, I can easily talk to girls, girls get my number first, etc. I've just never had a girl actually have a crush on me, never had a girl who actually liked me first. Its like I just blend in. I don't think you can make anyone else like you, it just happens, and it just never happened for me. I just blend in during social scenarios, I will be at a party and the next day people will be like "oh, anon, you where there?". It fucking sucks, I feel invisible, but I think that is just how I am, I don't know if I can change it, and I used to be able to be apathetic towards the loneliness, but now I deeply desire some sort of romantic relationship, I am even becoming a little prison gay just in hopes that I find someone to love me.
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>>36491694
At least you are getting some action with those tinder girls. I also have the same problems ( girls never showed any kind of sexual or romantic interest towards me) and I'm a KHHV. Unfortunately for us, these problems don't have a solution, so we are fucked. But you can have sex, so you are better than me
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>>36491992
Why do you come here, normalfag?
Hdjwomslske
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>>36492325
I've never had sex. I just match with the girls, haven't met up with any of them. It gives me an ego boost to at least know girls don't think I'm ugly.
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>>36492536
Well, at least you got a self esteem boost plan
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