Am I a bad person r9k people tell me to go away a lot just wanted

Maybe someone will understand me.
its a rare thing

also if any of you want to guide me through cutting my throat right tell me your discord id.
Thanks

Do you know why people are telling you to go away? Here are some common mistakes that are easily fixed with some self awareness:

>you smell bad or look greasy
>you act like you're better than normies
>you're fucking annoying and won't shut up
>the stuff you want to talk about is autistic
>you seem like you're faking a persona to impress people
>you're too emotionally dependent on other people, which makes it seem like a chore to be friends with you

When in doubt, bee yourself BUT ALSO try to reward people for being around you. Compliment them, talk about uplifting subjects, give them a reason to enjoy spending time with you.

>>36422642
I dont smell bad or think im better than anyone. And I'm mostly uplifting.

>>36422700
Well then maybe you're just hanging around the wrong kind of people. I see you posted an anime pic, ever try going to a con or even checking out some online communities? You shouldn't give up hope so easily for God's sake, you have a working body and brain so at least try your hardest.

>>36422762
I can talk to people in real life normally. And I prefer online friends.

>>36422525
Hang in there bro, you sound like a nice guy. Have you considered being (unironically) autistic? It seems to irritate normies

>>36422777
Well then what's the problem? All I have in my life are coworkers I get along with well enough but I'm not willing to throw it all away because sometimes I feel really, really bad. As long as you're alive, you can do something about your situation. If you died right now your whole life would just be a dumb short story with a shit ending.

>>36422525
No you aren't a bad person rem
I think you are a really nice person and I really like your posts :)
I hope aya contacts you soon

>>36422525
I don't know what to say about your personal problems but if you're gonna end it hanging is infinitely superior to bleeding out by cutting. It's far less painful and requires far less willpower.

I can't answer your question because I don't know you well enough.

how does a conversation normally go before you're asked to leave?

>>36422525
How's about we be friends anon I won't push you away trust me

I'm willing to be your friend if that's what you seek, anon.

>>36423312
I called him first! So I get to be his better friend

>>36423312
>>36423378
good luck guys, it looks like OP has left his thread so none of you can be his friend... yet

>>36423378
I don't see the point in placing rank with one another but if you want to be the better friend, you may be so. I guess.

>>36423424
I'm mostly joking.
>>36423418
Yeah seems that way. I hope he comes back poor little guy. I would love to make him trust friends again

>>36422642
Stop, everything in this is me except the first one, omfg, whyy..., i have realized this, i am trying to change, but looks like I am not doing anything better. I have one friend because we have same autisitc subjects but better looking and he is not annoying.

>>36423578
Atleast you know your faults though

>>36422642
>>you act like you're better than normies
ofc everyone here is better than normies

>>36423438
Same, though I'm going to bed now so that will never happen for me

Goodluck though

>>36423609
Still, doesn't make me better...

>>36423701
Cheer up

If we exchange some other way of communication then I wouldn't mind talking to you and see how you might be able to change

>>36422525
Well, you can't just post an anime pic with a mournful paragraph so its pretty much obligatory that someone poses as an anime character and "hugs" you and all.

Word of advice, and this comes from someone who used to be in the same position, don't bother with friends, distract yourself and make yourself into the kind of person you'd have sex with. Try to develop some innate narcissism as it is and will be your mainline in your case, this can be achieved through the following means;
>Aesthetic - Increasing knowledge of the arts (art, film, music etc. skip tv as it takes far too long frankly), use the other boards to help you in such. Also learn how to style yourself as well as possible, learn some colour theory and fashionable hairstyles for example.
>Internal - Improve your physical form, challenge yourself intellectually be it through retaking exams, enrolling yourself if small-scale courses, bonus points for anything related to STEM.

Ultimately these will make you gain some degree of self-perceived "superiority" and contribute to your self-worth, though it will not make you a terrible person as those who are confident have already mastered the art of doing this merely by natural means. However, and this is a huge caveat, do not force your viewpoints and new experiences down people's throats, keep it to yourself.

Of course, its likely you wont do any of these, and I don't mean that to be passive aggressive, rather that I've heard it all before and use to question doing this myself. However, you get to a point where you either have committed suicide or you haven't, and if you haven't, then either improve or do it already - with near-unlimited resources in the modern era you can more or less accomplish any form of self-growth, obviously you will never be chad - you have to grow up with constant approval and high social skills to do that, though you can look back on your circumstances and feel great about what you've accomplished.

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>>36425028
>>36422700
Forgot about your anime pic. Read your other posts by the way. If you want some dumb-ass diagnosis then >>36422642 pretty much gave you it. Be a reward, don't be a doormat however, and holy shit do not crowd them or be with them a lot, you want to be exclusive, like a special edition Xbox One (though I suppose I'd be telling you to jump in a bin if I went any further with that analogy). You get the point though. Also, if you don't already;
>Use Sure antiperspirant deodorant (24 hours), its fairly cheap and is brilliant at preventing sweat for the most part.
>Use exfoliates to improve your skin quality (reduced dirt, acne etc. even if your skin is perfect it still feels great to apply it then wash it off with warm water), personally I'd buy https://www.amazon.co.uk/Nivea-Daily-Essentials-Gentle-Exfoliating/dp/B00UYG0EYW/ref=sr_1_sc_1_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1492726041&sr=8-1-spell&keywords=nivea+exfolitat
>Do not smile too much, it is less attractive for men https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/between-the-lines/201105/study-finds-smiling-men-are-less-attractive-women
>Do not fake interests or use the same line of conversation to talk to people, if they want to do that then they will give you signals to do so. If you don't know what to say then either find something interesting to talk about or don't talk at all and wait for them.
>NEVER TALK ABOUT POLITICS AND/OR RELIGION, FOR ANY REASON, EVER.

>>36422525
Please don't kill yourself, OP. I'll be your friend and try to understand why people don't like you, it's probably not even your fault.

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>>36425197
Thanks kanna. Your advice is helpful

That makes me realize though
that I don't deserve them
and im really selfish
i should just end myself soon before he deletes me. im not good enough to be his friend, thats why he resists me all the time.

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>>36425468
Hahahahaha, you're misunderstanding my point. Its not that you "deserve" friends, its that you don't need them - with the right setup and a resourceful mentality you can be your own friend, and that comes first before anything else. There is no such thing as "deserving" a friend - you either have one or you don't, if they want to be around you then that is your choice. I still have a couple of friends to talk to every now and then though I ghosted most of them ages back (believe me, there is such a thing as having too many friends, only stick in a group of 3 if you can). Who cares if he deletes you? He's not holding you to a standard, you are probably just boring him (and if you talk like this then its no surprise, the minute you comfypost its pretty obvious you won't commit to the pain of suicide, minus the pun).

Go fantasize about suicide as long as you want, hell, if you really are driven then be done with it. If you aren't going to then find something to do - isolate yourself, find peace within yourself. You die and then what? If our consciousness disintegrates then there was no point crying about it, the result's the same for everyone, and if there's an afterlife then you have an eternity to be useful, watch your friends breakdown entirely and feel smug.

Point being that when it comes down to it, friends don't really add to a whole lot of beans, especially if you're a guy (its only really women who enter middle age with some acquaintances).

Also, when you say "he resists me" I really don't want to imagine what you are saying, are you gay? Is that why? Do you want a male partner as a friends with benefits because if not then there really is no point being "depressed" (and that's not to put you down, like I said I've been there yourself). Have a good 9 hour sleep on it and see how you feel, and only 9 or more, running a sleep deficit can really fuck with your mood. Hell I've been feeling like shit for running on one for a few days.

>>36425716
i just want to be his friend
he was my only friend and now he hates me

>>36425761
Oh God, I wasn't going to respond, as Its far past bedtime for me (got a train to catch early tomorrow), but give me some context, I've done a lot of shit to piss people off. So what is it, is he visible irate? What does he complain about? Does he use body language? Do you know what he says behind your back? (and everyone does that, figure why you should keep yourself first). Tell me in a short space of time preferably.

>>36425815
well, he thinks im too clingy and creepy. and all his friends probably hate me. its online too
he ignores me now

>>36425872
Okay, I'm feeling pretty rough at the moment so I'll give you as quick a rundown as I possibly can (at least based on previous experiences). My guess is that you met this person online and feel attached to them as a lifeline, given this they feel like they've been given a weight on their shoulders whilst also having nothing to advertise in another friend (forgive me for being so blunt). In response, you feel worse marginally worse since you see yourself as a pest and place far too large an emphasis on your friendship with this person. Let me just state that I think I see what part of the problem is, when you are friends with someone for such a long time you feel somewhat attracted to them - not in a homosexual manner but rather in a magnetic way, you know that the lease you've been given on life has been altered by them and will never change, that they are, in a sense, always a part of you and so you cling to them like a drug, which only exacerbates the problem when they're in such limited supply and pushes stress onto both parties - its a case where neither side can win.

That being said, its probably for the best if you cut yourself off - there is no need to be a pain to him and killing yourself isn't going to solve anything, sure, he probably won't learn about it, though you are basically just painting a signpost on your existence stating that some random human being who doesn't even have a major positive attitude towards you is so important that they override your very being of existence (and if you're going to kill yourself, at least use multiple methods, simultaneously, make it a success).

HOWEVER, and this worked for me; Try ghosting them for a month, then rejoin their discord or whatever, chances are you will be greeted in a much more positive manner, if not, then simply cut the connection, he's bitching about you behind you back and is the problem himself. If you do get positive signs when you return, then only talk to him every week.

>>36426195
Also, and this is my last post, but please to god tell me that you haven't told him that you browse 4chan, if so, then you might as well give up, the stigma is enormous and even if he doesn't mind he will still talk about it behind your back for the sake of complaining (and that's what virtually all "friends" do, like it or not). Do you seriously pretend to be Rem? With a male voice, fuck if I've been wasting my time. If you do then stop. For the record I've never used discord, and don't slit your neck, you're not fucking Rika. Use a gun w/ a rope or don't do it at all.

>>36426279
>gets given a books worth of advice
>replies with a repeating phrase that proves he didn't take in any advice
Literally hopeless

>>36426468
i know
im worthless
just guide me on cutting the artery and i'll be out of everyones hair
I want to talk with someone before I do it

>>36426513
If you are who I think, don't kill yourself the whole point was so you can get better it's not healthy to latch onto someone this way you'll only be hurt and it puts a massive weight on the person you are clinging to

>>36426559
thats right
Im a burden to him, and hes going to delete me soon
Just like you said I am hopeless, theres no point in living. and sorry I dont have a gun or rope
a knife is the best I can do

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>>36426632
Coming from someone that's dear to you, and trust me, i am dear to you
Don't attempt to kill yourself, it'll only seem like a strong attempt of gaining attention
Look for something that's worth living for, even if it's just a replacement of what you don't have right now
You need to stop making these threads for a start and begin to socialise with people, whether it's over the web or irl
Even not using r9k will be helpful enough
I want you to listen to what people have to say instead if disregarding it and saying "i guess I'll just cut my artery"
You won't find happiness with this lacking attitude
This person may not like you anymore, but what about the next person after him?

>>36426632
Be friends with me you fuck come on

>>36427634
My apology
can you tell me your discord name