Does anyone else feel like their depression is slowly becoming

>>36405603
I can't even enjoy anything now

>>36405603
Video games are the only thing that keep me going. If i get bored of them i think i'll start doing drugs. The routine is slowly killing me

i was diagnosed with depression when i was 10. that 16 years ago.

i have no idea what it's like to not be depressed. i've been depressed twice as long as not. i'm basically dead t b h.

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>>36405603
>tfw depression since childhood and I am now become depression incarnate

We as humans like things that represent our inner selves or "speak" to us such as music, clothes, games or anything else. The fact that you now like dreary weather is a sign that yes, it's starting to take over and gain more influence.

I hate going outside when it's sunny now because I know I should be enjoying the good weather but I don't which just reminds me of how depressed and fucked up I am but lack of sunlight only furthers depression and quickens its conquest of my mind. It's a vicious cycle.

>>36405803
When its sunny outside and I'm inside I feel like I'm wasting the good weather I SHOULD be enjoying, and when the weather is shit feel even worse for all the 'good weather' I've 'wasted'

Yep, the feel is too reel