>last night >feel disgusted with myself >determined

Only thing in going to say to you is that you think you love food but you really don't, because you got fat gorging yourself on horrible food that you thought you enjoyed. You need to change your perspective on eating and start eating to live and not living to eat.

>>36284211
>>determined to make a change
Is that the lie you tell yourself to make yourself feel better? If you actually didn't want to be a disgusting, obese piggy you would've discarded all your fat person paraphernalia.
Its like when I quit smoking, at first I kept a pack around just in case, but my resolution always failed because in knew I had cigarettes and I was going to smoker them because I had them.
Throw out your sugar-laden food hoard, don't buy more. Start ketogenic diet, continue until you aren't a fat piece of dog shit and maybe you can switch to a less intense diet

>>36284211
The way to change yourself is not to cease eating. Your body needs energy. You should eat differently and start exercising; not deny your body energy.

I guess OP went back to stuffing his face.

If you want to change you will.