30+ thread >kh wizard >given up all hope >see young

Fuck man. I feel sorry for you OP. I hope you somehow make it out of this hell you are in.

i can't be the only one, seriously somebody, please respond

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>>36256970
I'm not quite 30 OP, but 29 this year.
>homeless
>had apartment but lost it when the owners "wanted to move back in"
>thought I'd be living in my car for only a few weeks
>it's been 2 months and no end in sight
>I work full time but still can't seem to rub two pennies together to pay for a new deposit and 4 weeks in advance
>feel dirty all the time and bored
>ex alcohol
>no family who care about me
>have some friends but I keep them at arms' length because I'm withdrawn in general
>nobody knows I'm homeless (I hope)
>trying to quit smoking which I started thru boredom n stress
>hard to have romantic prospects when you live in the boot of your car
>only seem to attract vicious harpies staright from the DSM-IV anyway who use me (hence no savings when I lost the house)
>having no home makes you feel like a fringe outsider to society and affects your psyche as such
>feel my schizo flaring as a result and struggling to stave off addiction to deal
I did well in HS and college. I never thought I'd be staring down the barrel of refractive homelessness but here I am.

I'm sorry, OP.

I'm 31 and recently had to break off a four year engagement. She was my first and only.
I'm unemployed, past my prime, fiancee had me replaced immediately and pretty damn miserable and alone.

I was so close to normie life, though. But I lost it all and have no idea how to get it back.

I don't know anymore.

On the plus side, just 1.5 years to go to finish law school. Hopefully a better future awaits me then.

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I wanted to respond, but I'm too depressed to post constructively these days.
I stopped using drugs (prescription and otherwise) and now all I have left is despair; don't know where to go from here, either.

>>36257494
>I'm 31 and recently had to break off a four year engagement. She was my first and only.
what happened? tell me the whole story, every detail. i don't even know what any of this would be like, all my life I've been pushed away until I was entirely alone.

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>>36257602
>meet girl during sports
>instantly connect and she pursues me
>become a couple and have four years of intense happiness

That's just what it was. Perfect happiness. But I don't have the heart to talk about this right now.

>she has to move to another city and naturally I follow the love of my life
>hate it there and can't adjust
>don't talk about my emotions and shut her out and leave her alone in that sense
>she develops feelings for someone else
>talks to me about it before it escalates
>talk so so much and decide to fight for our relationship
>the more we talk, the more I realize I had already lost her a long time ago
>I'm the adventurous option and he became the safe option
>she's so afraid that she made the wrong choice by sticking with me
>despite our strong love for each other, realize this fight was over before it began
>let her go.

And here I am. Not a moment goes by where I don't second guess this decision. We should've talked more. I should've given it more time. Of course the spark wouldn't be back in a few days. We could've fix it. I should've sacrificed more for her. I regret regret regret so much the choice I've made. I miss her and I want her back. I am lesser without her in my life.

But I had no choice.

fml

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>31
>Edge to gaping fur cunt in 8+ hour sessions blow out my dick veins, uro has never seen penile varices in his life
>grade 8 drop out
>Haven't left mothers house since 2001 except for the hospital
>All clothes rotted away, only thing left is black hoodies and thick white soled canvas skatefag shoes no one past 13-18 wears.
>Life consists of jerking off to porn I hate more and more by the day (save ~2-3 things a month despite all the hours I browse) and playing 18 year old emulated MMORPG
>losing my sanity rapidly probably schizo now and paranoid as fuck now
>boards filled with trap spamming faggots that no one wants to be around and normies

27. see u soon 30+ bros