>tfw you dont know what the fuck to do with your life
>tfw have been working same wagecuck job since high school
>tfw spent a year in college but dropped out cause i hated it and just wanted to work
>tfw finally decided to get a better job
>tfw spent 30 hours to find it and get foot in door of great paying job for someone my age
>spent last 2 weeks basically as an unpaid intern
>actually got offered job, will get really good money
>all of the sudden fear of commitment sets in, especially after owner spent 10 minutes lecturing about how i am expected to work for a year or two at least
>even if i were to ignore this and piss him off and quit, i couldnt legally start my own business in this area for 3 years which is what i wanted to do because that is illegal
>tfw dont want to waste more of my life locked into being miserable
>tfw scared of going down wrong life path and looking back at 30 and wondering why i did what i did
>tfw no matter what i do, neet, school, or wagecucking at any level of pay i just feel empty inside
>tfw just want ww3 to start
>>36199387
It'll get better, don't give up. You can be happy. I promise.
>>36199696
thanks anon. feel pretty shitty right now because im just realizing there is no hopeful or happy path anywhere for me that i can see. have been doing nothing but thinking about this shit and my life in general for the past few hours. now all i have is a bad headache and i feel even more depressed than when i started. the worst part is that no matter what happens to me, even if i got an 8/10 qt gf tomorrow, all i do is think of all the infinite other possibilities and directions i could have gone in my life. its really bad when im stuck in the same place and basically cant get out and even if i were to move, i would end up unhappy and wondering what else could have been once again. anyway sorry to ramble my diary. nice to get some words of encouragement
>>36200394
Have you tried drugs and alcohol?
>>36200697
No, neither.
>>36200751
>Never tried weed or at least alcohol
What the fuck is wrong with you
>>36199387
Just go ahead with the job if you think your coworkers and the boss will like you and you can make decent money.