why am I always focused on some vague "future" that

Same boat. Always agitated and cannot relax. Have been like this for 4 years now.

>>36010921
Those who have nothing to live for in the now cannot help but dream of the then.

>>36010921
12 years of mind boggling boredom and waiting will do that to a man

the answer is xanax but that shit has a depressingly short shelf life before it can turn on you

Kal from Michigan from runescape?

If this is you, tell me your sisters name.

>>36011015
nope

>>36011012
I'd like to try xanax but honestly i don't want to rely on drugs to reach this presentness i'm referring to. I just want to fucking get there naturally man but it's hard work..

That's called anxiety senpai.
Start meditating, stop watching porn.

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>>36011035
I feel you, and that's honestly a good choice; I was just offering the only solution I've ever personally found. I know exactly the mental state you're talking about.
I hope it works out for you anon
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>>36010921

That's peoples common problem with being "Present" they assume it takes effort, but actually it requires a lack of effort.


it's hard to explain, you might think you have to fight these thoughts or checklists to succeed in mindfulness. That's the wrong approach.


You just simply, let go, that's all there is to it. It's easy when you realize you don't have to worry about pointless things because they're irrelevant and not applicable to your current situation.

They say go with the flow, let your thoughts be like water flowing down a river stream, don't resist the negative thoughts by going uphill, you spend more time on them that way. simply move on from them as quickly as possible, passing no judgment to yourself, assigning no moral value to them, realizing that you =/= to your thoughts.

Thats me 24/7. Anxiety and unrest have made me miserable both health wise and mentally wise. I have had scary chest wall pain, breathing issues, weird muscle spams everywhere on my body and dull headaches from fatigue for the past six months because of my anxiety and worry of my future.

You and I both need to learn to relax OP. Im doing some meditations and it helps.

>>36011141

> I have had scary chest wall pain, breathing issues, weird muscle spams everywhere on my body and dull headaches from fatigue for the past six months because of my anxiety and worry of my future.

holy fuck man this is exactly me. I even went to a cardiologist and got an ultrasound done on my heart because of the horrific pain and shortness of breath. everything's healthy about my physical body so I guess my brain is just fucked.

You are not in contact with your needs and wants, to live in the present you have to be in contact with them and take risks to follow them.

When you spend a lot of time delaying things you just lose contact with your Instincts and emotions.

also, I'm afraid that if I lose this incessant future-minded thought process I might end up killing myself. i've felt vague glimmers of my unadulterated present and it feels very empty and frightening without this "escape" or crutch i've been relying on.

>>36011204
Its the same with me. I got an ekg to check my heart, blood test, breathing checked etc and other than some higher than normal blood pressure, the docs Ive seen told me Im relatively healthy and dont have anything serious wrong with me.

Anxiety really is a killer. I choose not to take meds that alleviate the symptoms because I dont want to be drugged up 24/7 but I feel miserable on my worst days and slightly okay on normal days. Right now Im just trying to relax and control my anxiety. Besides meditations, Ill probably start doing cardio

Fucking hate all these gay new trip fags
All of you fags are such attention whores that need to fuck off

>>36011458
i've been on this website longer than you've been alive kid

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>>36011474
>!piJ20CS22k
all your posts are top tier cringy "14 year old faggot first day on /b/" tier

>>36011665
Well I've been here since 2010 and have contributed more than you friend

Don't be jealous because I'm famous on your favorite board

>>36011728
Also i'm phoneposting right now that's why my trip isn't on, how mad does that make you my man?

You guys have these thoughts while blasting an old guy for being here, well he's going to be you soon. A good future is not something that just happens, you have to actually make it happen for yourself. You need agency, kind of the opposite of this site and internet addiction