>tfw the moment you release you'll never ride yourself

>>36009247
I hate this feel more than any other anon

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>>36009247
>tfw you are helpless against your mental disorders and can't do anything to stop it
>tfw life goes by right before your eyes, and all you can do is watch
>tfw you walk into a crowd and everyone stares at you, and every laugh you here feels like it's at you
>tfw you can't feel happiness and love doesn't seem real
If any normans are reading this, enjoy life. I wish I could but it's too late

>>36009643
Normans feel no pity for us and only wish for our demise. We are defective and will only know peace when we cease to exists.

I feel fated to commit suicide.

>>36010204
Same. Forced, even.

The funny thing is, I used to have these recurring dreams all the time as a kid where I would feel an invisible black hole behind me and as I tried to move away from it, my body would weigh down, my eyes would shut, the breath would leave my lungs and this thing would just slowly pull me towards it. I couldn't call to anyone and there was never anyone around anyway and the harder I would try to fight it, the harder it cripple me. The only option was to go totally limp to stop all the torpidity but that would never stop the gravity of the black hole.

Lo and behold, that's what my life actually became. I was fucked from the outset and my subconscious knew about it.