So /r9k/, what is your ideal self, the person that you'd

i am my real self and i am my ideal

tfw fertile and juicy

i'm so in love

I want to be kind like the chad I used to know
Im just so bitter now I cant enjoy anything

I want to be happy in my own skin and have a foothold in a real job that isn't food service.

I want to stop wanting to carve off the soft places in my body with my chef knife. It would be so satisfying if I couldn't feel it. I'm not even fat, I'm just super autistic and hate the sensation of being encased in meat. I'd like to wake up tomorrow and not feel that.

>>35986136
My ideal life: Not having drug addict parents and lived in a nice suburban neighborhood where I grew up in one house and had my oneitis as my best friend till I confessed and we had a happy life like two normal people.

My actual life: I'm now a shitty drug dealer living in an apartment with my brother hating myself for not having a normal childhood.

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I want to be bearmode. I'm on a testosterone cycle at the moment.

>>35986136
I want to either
a) find purpose and meaning and live according to my principles
b) find love and acceptance, that is, become close to someone without backing out due to fear of being hurt

i want to rob a place
i want to be true evil while still holding onto my sanity
i want to experience everything

The ideal me would be dead
>originioli

I wish I was a girl, a normal girl, no depression or mental disorders, no poverty. Just a normal girl without a care in the world, no worrying every single day, no crying and no suicidal feelings.

I enjoy cute things and cuteness in general, I'd enjoy trying my best to be as cute as I can, and would likely be very girly in general. I'd like to have a few close friends to hang out with, have fun and share good memories with, and a girlfriend (I like girls so I'd be a lesbian) that I can also be lovey dovey to and care a lot about. I'd do my best to make her smile, and we would be happy with each other.

>>35986301
Better be bear testosterone m8

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>>35986136
I want to be a benevolent leader.
To bad I am a sperg

>>35986760
You can always go the coup way. Take power from the normies with your frog army, then show em how it's done.

>live alone
>making money drawing porn
>weeb'd my room the way I want it
>making enough money to survive with some for spending on weebshit and games


That's literally all I want in life.

>>35986270
You can always stop being a drug dealer

>>35986136
I'd love to be a singer in a rock band and wear leather jackets and have a cool but qt gf.
Too bad I'm a pretty good singer but can't write music for shit and don't know any other musicians. Also, I've only ever really liked one girl and she and I can't be together because I'm incapable of not spilling a full four course italian sunday dinner out of my pockets in front of her, and she sleeps around too much.

I'd like to be more like my dad. He is one of those headstrong and dutiful types. He just decides on things and gets it done. I honestly have never seen him fail. He really seems like he could have gone farther in life had he had a better childhood.

>be competent enough as a person to live a comfortable life, and not feel like a subhuman failure
>be a happy, social and likeable person, even if I'm not very extraverted
>have real, close friendships with people who I like to be around and who like to be around me, regardless of what we're doing
>be creative, draw or make music or write stories, any way I can create things that people will find beautiful or interesting

I'm going to fucking stab my eyes out.

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> Lost virginity, preferably not to a hooker
> Found a job that I enjoy
> Making enough to compfotably live alone in small home
> Social skills
> at least 4 good friends

>>35986136
Honestly at this point i just want to be a happy person who has the brain capabilities of a slight above average human.

I wanna be a normie

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A game developer, but I'm far, far too lazy and stupid to achieve that.

I'm gonna go masturbate, brush my teeth and then sleep.

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>>35986136
I may hate myself, and i think about how my life could have been so much better if i had just a nice family.
But even though i am who i am today, id rather be this than whatever else.
If that made sense.

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>a very wise and experienced individual with thousands of stories to tell from vast life experiences
>knowledgeable about art, music, literature, and skilled in the creation thereof
>traveled across the world either by military duties or by personal endeavors
>seen the absolute breadth of the entire world we inhabit, as much as one individual possibly can
>live among all walks of life, live a thousand lives all in the span of one
>basically I want to 100% complete life
>eternally depressed because I know this is absolutely impossible

>>35986136
I want to be the coolest skilled hygienic deadpan funniest version of myself.
And perauasive but wholsomely me.

So much so I make people feel bad for being racist if they are, and be friends with me.

Also be able to have anyone I meet digest my sound logic and accept that I would rather be dead at any given moment.

Succesful politician, save Europe from the alien hordes, live in history. Yeah