>when its nice outside but you have no friends to go

>not going on /comfy/ nightwalks with nobody bothering you
You're missing out.

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>>35970618
Yeah i know that feel i went outside a lot until 14 now im sitting 4 almost 5 years at home playing vidya and fap 4-5 times per day

>>35970777
Start running, Forrest Gump mode. Worked for me.

>>35970759

I'd go on nightwalks more often, but I don't want my housemates to think I'm a normie who goes out drinking with people.

>>35970850
Honestly, why is that a problem to you?

>>35970810
Well I kind of don't have the desire to do anything anymore

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>>35970777
I fell into the same trap you're currently in. I'm still in the trap, almost 10 years later.

Get out while you still can, although, I too was warned and lost my chance. GET. OUT.

>>35970893
That's the beauty of running, exercise endorphin's do strange things to your brain. You just get out there and pound away the pain. Almost everyone I find who runs long distances is fucked in the head.

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>going outside
What treachery is this?

>>35970911
sauce on that image?
with some oregano

>>35971107
Kokou no Hito

It's a pretty good manga about a solo rock climber.

>>35970618
>When it's nice outside and you just want it to be grey and rainy again, so you don't have to feel guilty about staying inside with the blinds shut
Grey and rainy is best weather anyway though

>>35971416
this

>>35970618
fuck you cuck

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>>35971416
>he doesn't take go outside when it's gray and rainy

It's like you purposefully rid yourself of one of the best experiences this shithole of a planet has to offer to you.

>>35972349
>implying I'm not too anxious and paranoid to go outside without worrying constantly about being seen by people and having them look right through me to see what a miserable, worthless person I am
I have a hard enough time making it to class when I have to. I can't willingly subject myself to that shit unless it's the middle of the night or snowing and nobody else is out or can see me well.

>>35972396
The only way you will get over this is forcing yourself to do it.

>>35972409
That's what everyone says. I've only gotten worse. It's whatever.

>>35970618
Get hii so hi that you feel like flying

>>35972433
You just have shitty confidence. Start exercising and eating healthy. I was just like you now IDGAF

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>>35970618

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q5AkBBQWZR4

DAILY REMINDER

>>35972460
You're partially right, but it runs deeper than that. My shitty self-esteem is resultant of an unfixable mental illness, so working out isn't gonna fix that (already eat pretty healthy).

>>35972396
Do you honestly think people give a fuck about you when you go outside? You are literally a nobody to everybody, you're like a NPC in their eyes, so why give a fuck in return?
Just be urself faggit.

Go hiking and smoke weed OP. Put on your favorite music. Sounds like stereotypical hippy stoner bullshit but there's a reason they're so happy.

>>35972509
Mental illness is a made up jew meme. If you are in shape and feel attractive you wont feel like you do now.

>>35972556

This. Generally speaking, attractive people are happy, ugly people are unhappy. And if you can't make yourself attractive you'll probably always be unhappy in some sense. This is why suicide is a good thing.

>>35972556
Really? So what do you call being a tranny? If you say it's anything other than mental illness, you're fucking wrong. Gender dysphoria is hell.

>>35972581
Well in that case you can always try gassing yourself. There's tutorials online, go check em out.

>>35972615
Plan to. Hanging and jumping are my back up plans.

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>>35970618
>Wanting to go outside
Normie spotted

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>>35972653
Go for it dude, plans are made to be accomplished after all.

>>35972581
That's not an illness, as in something you can treat, it's just who you are, like being a faggot or a pedo.

>>35972687
Waitin for my parents to die or lose their mental faculties first if I can hold out that long. As big of a fuck-up I am, it would still devastate them to know I did it.

>>35972688
K dude.

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>>35972681
This.

>tfw live a five minute walk to the beach
>never been in the water in the 15 years I've lived here
>never even been in the sand

>>35972731
Whats so bad about being a tranny anyway? Plenty of guys wanna fuck a tranny, as can be seen ad-nauseam on here.

>>35972804
The whole gender dysphoria thing that makes you feel disgusting and wrong in your body for looking like a normal male (if you're MtF anyway). The intense sadness and envy you feel randomly when seeing average looking girls that you think could have been you. Knowing that without being a woman (you'll only at best be an expensive imitation that MAYBE looks close to the real thing) everything you could achieve in your life holds no meaning to you. Knowing you'll never be comfortable enough with yourself to have a proper relationship. Having a good mood ruined simply by looking in the mirror or feeling the short hair growing back on your face.

Shit like that. It's like having this part of you that's missing and knowing you'll never really be able to fix it, but it's something so fundamental you can't imagine living without it and can't deal with the situation you're in.

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>>35972887
Well, you certainly think and whine like a woman. Why don't you just put all your effort into becoming a hot 10/10 tranny. Pic related: would fuck the shit out of, then caress tenderly.

>>35972955
Because I don't wanna be a tranny, dude. It's not about sex to me either. I want to feel like a normal person as an actual woman without the paranoia of passing or remembering how I spent the first 20 years of my life hiding in my room hating myself for being a dude. Like I said, you can get super close to looking like a woman, but you'll never have the proper body to be one, and you'll probably never escape the shit in your own head (Seems like most of us don't anyway. Some do.) But whatever. It's tough to explain how much it eats away at every aspect of your life and sense of self.

>>35972887

Sounds like the same shit as just being ugly. I'm an ugly fuck and I'm constantly miserable that I'm not 6'+ with broad shoulders, a big dick, chiseled jaw, etc.

>>35973121
Maybe, idk. I just know that it chips away at every aspect of life and drains me of having hope to any fulfilling/happy future. I certainly feel ugly too though.

>>35973121
I know this feel anon. I can picture in my head the person I think I'm supposed to be, with a proper jawline, full head of hair, fully developed maxilla, etc. But that's just not what I see when I look in the mirror.

>>35973091
Sounds like you are giving up before you even try. Why not give it a decent shot and see if it is really as shit as you think it will be. Lots of people are fucked up, your not the only one.

>>35973225
I mean, I'm taking hormones and trying to get myself at least somewhat comfortable in my skin, and sometimes it works too. But you're right, I have given up before I've exhausted my options. I'll probably keep trying, but my hope is pretty fucking miniscule.

>>35973181

It's irritating as fuck because in my head I see myself as fairly normal looking, not Chad-like necessarily but just fucking normal. Like, I'll speak a sentence or give someone a glance or something and in my head it seems totally appropriate to the situation and completely normal.

But then I see a fucking picture or video of myself and the reality comes crashing down that I'm an ugly fuck with no ability to socialize or use body language properly. Like I visualize myself and my behavior a certain way but the reality is completely the opposite. I fucking know what's socially acceptable, I know what my voice should sound like and how the tone should come across, I know what body language is effective but my brain is incapable of translating the ideas into reality because my body is fucking deformed, or at least incredibly genetically handicapped. Fucking sucks.

It's not even autism because I have a very clear picture in my head of what proper social behavior looks like, I'm just incapable of performing it in reality because of my nasal voice, wide hips, weak jaw, receding hairline, 5'9 stature, narrow shoulders and wide hips, beer belly and tits despite being 140 pounds, etc. Fuck this fucking life. Holy shit man that was a long rant.

>>35973315
I know exactly what you mean anon. I can relate to all of that except I'm taller than you, but height alone isn't enough.

It's like this isn't my body. I don't recognize myself in it. It's a prison.

>>35973315
>beer belly and tits despite being 140 pounds
Why don't you actually try? Your just the same as the tranny who gives up before even trying, imagining how shit it will be. Go lift faggot.

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>>35973453
Oh and another thing. You mentioned your nasally voice. My voice is really weird. It's slurred all the time as if I'm drunk no matter how hard I try to enunciate properly. I also have this weird accent even though I was born and raised in America. People always ask me where I'm from. I'm so disconnected from my body I can't even speak properly.

>>35973315
i would 100% kill myself if this was me

>>35973966
>not understanding and relating to those feels perfectly

Fuck off normie

>>35972681
>>35972738
No, it's just called being a wet blanket