So my dudes i'm back again after a year of not touching the 4 chin and I have a story of my current failure and life away from you guys so go ahead and grab a drink and get comfy
>so this started about a year ago when I started focusing on my life and not screwing with 4chan or games and I met this girl and fell in love with her around Christmas time she didn't know how I felt but I thought there was something there for her too (we cuddled&talked every day etc) so I ask her out on valentines day and oh did I forget to mention that this girl is a lesbian thats kinda important. Anyways she turned me down I had the worst day of my life and tried to off myself because I couldn't deal with rejection from her. We reconciled however and became even stronger friends and we got close and closer now summer rolls around and she was leading some cuck on for fun and I told her she should send him a nude for like 1 second to fuck with him and she sent it to me. So i'm like wtf I thought there was nothing there for us so we got even closer over the summer and progressively more and more into the idea of having sex. So when we meet up again we fuck and it was absolutely wonderful I loved it and I realized that I was in love with her. She made me feel so loved and cared about like no one else ever has before and things are great for about 4 more months we fuck about once a week and she slowly starts pushing me away and when I ask why she says she wants to be done with me that this feels too much like a relationship to her and she doesn't want it. I'll do anything for her even leave so I back off. She comes back and we're friends again and slowly but surely we end up back in a "relationship" we never actually dated never up until this very day. Things were great again for months and she decided to push me away again and tells me that some dude asked her to go watch a sportball game
>this is part one let me know if I should keep going if anyone is interested at lass
Also i'm a mobile fag rn so excuse my shitty typos
>Year wasted
Kek
Leaving this place for a year was probably the best decision I've ever made. This place is toxic for the mind, leaving you with a terribly pessimistic mindset.
Anyhow, I managed to lose my virginity, 1st with a shemale (paid for) and then a real girl (had to lower my standards tho). I managed to make the real girl my gf for a while (albeit a ldr one). But after finding out that sex is overrated and being in a relationship is kinda pointless and a hassle (prefer doing my own thing without having to worry about somebody else), I'm not really fussed anymore, I'd rather just fap.
>>35939870
please learn how to greentext holy shit
honestly i think i will quit 4chan entirely
this place is bad for you mentally. i love this place deeply as robots understand me but i want to try to be a normie so bad. i need love
>>35940732
do it for a year, and make a little effort. clean yourself up, lose weight if you have to, make a dating profile with a decent enough pic. I did this, but only succeeded when I was in Thailand (so depending on how you look, it might not work in your home country).
>>35940732
oh yeah, and fuck an escort. it'll boost your confidence for a while.
>>35940619
I don't see how leaving was good. It seems like you just went out into the real world, realized it sucked, then came back. Did your mindset change?
>>35939870
Your story is trash and your taste in cards is pleb as fuck.
>>35940964
It was good in the fact that now I'm not obsessing over "tfw no gf". I feel kinda liberated really, being a slacker doing what I wanna do without those constant intrusive thoughts. I wouldn't turn down a girl, and nor would I turn down sex, but I'm certainly not playing the game of jumping through hoops to get my dick wet.
>>35939870
>wall of text
>badly formated wall of text
no, thank you