>contact old close childhood friend after years >we meet

>>35930468
I also feel I lack that "thing", so many times I have tried to get friends. Im so sick of failing at it.

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>>35930468
I'm not even able to relate to other robots... so thinking about normies is a pain in the arse

>I feel like years of solitude and mental illness and only talking on this anonymous website has broken something inside me.

Yes. Might as well embrace it at this point.

>>35930533

Well, he is a "good" normie and not a chad.
He is not a virgin but he doesn't have a gf since 2015.
That kinda makes me happy.

Man, the more I think about it, the more I realize I'm a real asshole. I was not like this always.

>>35930468
I hate everyone. I hate humans. I hate being alive. I get not getting it.

>>35930911

Well, I don't. I like humans, I like life. I think. Most of the time, anyway.
But it feels like it's too late.
I didn't finish school because of severe anxiety/phobias/depression.

I feel like I'm still 15. I'm 21. It feels like everyone else has grown up, has a job or is studying, a gf and not a virgin, friends and I stayed the same but worse mentally and all alone. I feel out of place.

yes i know that feel. i use to work at a grocery store i was a bagger when i first started then it was kind of like meh i can't really relate to my co-workers. i think it was also i gave a co-worker a ride home she would ask about me. she would talk shit about me.

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I dont know if i cant feel.
Or feel entitely too much.
Overclocked and naively numbed like an exposed nerve in a sandstorm.

I have nothing but a circular logic string of confusion that breeds hatred for the unfathomable.

Though there is an abberation in the pattern.
A glitch of immense compassion for everyone to contrast the pain.

Like a karmatic gambit to love without condition to reedem credit to allievate the suffering.

Then it is processed as illogical.
Unnecessarily transactional.
It. Confuses me.
And the game resets

>>35931975
Tell me my dear lad, did you come up with that yourself?
I'm noticing that there is a lot of you guys able to drop some serious prose and here I am writing and speaking like a retarded normie.
Teach me.

>>35930659
>he's alone and I'm happy about it

This is really destructive thinking, at least you realize it's bad. Those are not good thoights banish them from your mind or they will consume you and selfish incarnate will be your life. Normies will be normies, do not let their happiness destroy you and do not feed off their sadness. You must avoid becoming an emotional vampire!

>>35932291

To be honest, I think it's normal.
Of course I'm fucking jealous and bitter even if he is my friend, I'm a virgin.
It's good to know I'm not the only one in a bad state.

Humans in general are shitty.

>>35932272
I cant teach you nuffin b.
When I get on the anonymous Imageboards I sing like a fag in the shower.

When u black u gotta b tuff and ack dum

Bottle up the thinks you have.
They gestate inside until I have a really good idea or the best idea I can muster.

Words are my escape. But I don't say much.

Ask yourself.
How do you feel right now? How is it different from how you would like to feel?

>>35930468
Yes, although I don't know how to describe it. I'll be talking with someone and then I'll compare it to them talking with someone else and it's two different worlds. That casual banter that seems shallow but has an emotionally complex component that allows them to bond. I can't do it and it frustrates me so much.

>>35932421
I understand the thought anon, I threw them all out, and I'm much happier now. I'm a virgin too, but I'm not mad or really sad about it, it's just a fact. I don't know how I got rid of it, but it's some kind of contented feeling, don't be content that your a virgin, but be content that at least your not a starving African or something. If your happiness is no longer reliant on outside factors you will feel better. Also I quit jerking off to porn, I did this recently and I feel better too. Cleaner. Don't know if it's got anything to do with it, but it's good anyways.

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>>35930468
Same exact shit happened to me recently.
>met with an old friend
>somewhat robot
>turns out he actually has a gf and likes normie shit

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>>35930468
>I feel like years of solitude and mental illness and only talking on this anonymous website has broken something inside me.

Yes my friend our generation is fucked up in the mind because of fucking Internet. I have always think that the worst mistake of my parents was buy me a computer with access to the Internet and put it in my room where I could do whatever I wanted.

Sometimes I have tried to see it as a positive thing, thinking that is better that I was in my cmputer playing or posting in stupid forums instead of being in the streets and becoming a troublemaker, because I live in an area where many people is like that, drugs, fights, etc.

But now, after many years, I have realised that it isn't like that. There is no positive thing of had been so many time in the computer wasting my time with stupid things.

Now I'm trying to disconect all I can from all things with screens. I think that we live in the age of screens. All people wherever you go is looking to a fucking screen, either the smartphone, the laptop. and if you are at home the televison or the computer. We spent like 1/4 of our lifes looking to fucking screens. And then you wonder why so many of us have that lack of social habilities to talk to people and to meet girls. I wonder why it could be?

If I one day have my own kids I won't ever buy them a computer and put it in their bedroom like my parents did. The computer would be in the living room, where I can see what are they doing. Also they won't have smartphone until they have 18 years minimum.

So that's what I think. Computers, then Internet and now smarphones (the final weapon of social destruction and the most perfect) have ruins many many lifes. I won't say they are bad per se because all technology depends of how you use it but I still think that having this things when you are still a kid fuck your brain and then it's very difficul to change that after years and years of the same habits.

I just don't get small talk.

>>35932870
It never feels like something that should be called "small talk".

>>35932848
I don't see where was the positive thing in for example being all the weekend alone in my house watching porn all day and jerking like 10 times in a day. Sleeping during the day and then all the night playng or watching porn. Two day like that without going out of my house in two days until my parents came back on saturday afternoon.

>>35932487
Thanks that actually made me thnink (for real).

>>35933017

Well to be quite honest with you, the chans with their liberal policies about free speech were a massive redpill about human behavior and the world for me. That's a positive I'd say. It made me see that a veil has been pulled over my eyes... no seriously, after learning so much I can't believe how gullible I was about everything in the world. I am still swallowing massive redpills concerning men/women relationships, this time in real life but all read here beforehand. And I have to say I have a really hard time accepting all of it. My incel situation is slowly becoming a volcel to be quite honest, if it wasn't already.

>>35933149
Glad to hear it m8o8