Anyone else terrified of growing old? >Literally nothing

>>35929348
Me and you are the same age. I feel many of these burdens. I wonder if things will ever get better for me. The only happy memories I have are from early childhood. Even those weren't the best.

You could always get a dog or buy a motorcycle. Also you haven't lived til you've experienced VR porn.

I want to kill myself on my 30th b day. I think its the best way to go

>>35929457
>Was extremely ugly for 15 years of my life, 2/10 no kidding
>start looking decently went to 8/10 easy
>Have to move to grandma with starting dementia because my parents want to build house and had to sold flat to get money for it
>Literally 2 years of mental suffering equal to getting tortured by ISIS
>Try to confess to my crush
>Not only did I get rejected but her friend wrote messages to me in her stead and makes fun of me to add salt into wound
>Parents never gave me money except daily 0,40c for bus to school (I didnt get money for bus that went from school so I had to walk)
Now that I look back, my life was just one suffering after another. Happeist moment of my life was one year ago when I got a job and thought it would be great, but I had to clean cars on weekends for 8 hours while also going to school so it turned to be pretty terrible

>>35929348
nah, in 20 years humans will be able to decide how long they live.

>>35929348
Yes, if life doesn't improve within 24 months I'm gonna fucking jump.

>already have serious chronic back/hip pain at 22
>its going to worsen as I grow older
>pain meds will stop working
I'm planning on suicide before I hit 50, or whenever my folks die. Alzheimers and cancer also runs in my family, so I'm also fucking terrified of that.
This is all assuming I don't die of an OD or liver failure before that.

>>35929348
Oh boi, it's another, "I've been a legal adult for a year, and think I'm old" after school special.

>>35929918
Im already working full time in a factory for minimal wage. I already know about life more than 98% of people on this board

>>35930011
You're on the lower bound experience wise, and it's very likely you suffer from delusions.

>>35930011
Share your wisdom man who screws the lids onto tooth paste tubes!

>>35930143
>>35930268
Just trying to say I already know that life is a hellhole without any escape and negative experiences will always heavily outweigh the positive experiences

>>35930320
What defines a negative and a positive experience?

>>35929348
>tfw you won't be able to justify your autismo behaviour with juvenile inexperience as you'll get older

JUST

>>35929348
Yes but only because of death. The thought of living a full life then just turning to nothing forever terrifies me. It's not even something we can imagine either because it's a nothing we can't even experience, it makes everything pointless. Shit gives me panic attacks if I start thinking about it too hard.

>>35930466
If you lived forever would that be better?

>>35930481
Possibly that's at least something you can feel and comprehend compared to complete and total non-existence for eternity

>>35930518
I dunno about that. I for one, cannot comprehend why I am conscious. I can understand all the stuff about my brains and my memories being who I am, but why right now, right here?

>>35930466
Dont worry about death, seeing how EVERYTHING in nature is cyclical, you will most likely be reborn. Considering how only humans acknowledge their own existence you cant be born as any other animal on planet. I mean being a monkey or dog would be equal to living in a 2 years old human body. Have emotions but still dont really realize your existence. The biggest problem is your chance to be born into an average white family without any biggeri issues is like 5%

>>35930617
>EVERYTHING in nature is cyclical

It just seems like that to you.

>>35930617
>EVERYTHING in nature is cyclical
Except it's not and if nothing of you is kept intact then your not being reborn, you're ceasing to exist totally

>>35930671
Im just trying to say there isnt some kind of eternal sleep as some people think. Important part is that you will be reborn and it doesnt matter whether it will be with your previous conciousness or a completely new one. Like come on, nature isnt fair but its not dumb either, believing that when you die you will not wake up until the end of times is stupid.

>>35930772
>believing that when you die you will not wake up until the end of times is stupid.
How could you wake up when you are dead? You could make an exact copy of me, but it still wouldn't be me experiencing what my copy experienced. Your entire identity is tied to your memories. Just like you weren't alive before you were born, you couldn't be alive after you die.

>>35930336
Positive means good, negative means bad. People like good things and dislike bad things, as a general rule.

>>35931414
>Positive means good, negative means bad.
Circular.
>People like good things and dislike bad things
If one guy likes chocolate and another vanilla, it is just a matter of brain chemistry. Human beings have evolved a brain chemistry that does not let them remain content, but there is no reason it wouldn't be possible to change that so that the positive experiences would greatly outweigh the negative experiences.

>>35931826

If you ever figure it out please let me know. Liking bad things only makes the bad things good things so it's circular. I like circles though so that's fine by me. I already like both chocolate and vanilla. I like books and novels too though, so it's obviously not enough liking good things that are the same.

>>35932381
Good thing = thing that I like.
Bad thing = thing that I do not like.
We are designed to stop liking things after a short period. Then we will go out chasing new things. So it is better for our survival if happiness do not last.
It should technically be possible to stop our brains from changing from "I like this" to "I do not like this".

>>35929348

27 years old here, just today i was at a friends step dads funeral, listening to all the stories about him made me think of what stories people would tell at my funeral, then i realised there wouldnt be any

>>35932467
>we gather here to celebrate the life of Anon D. Frogposter
>he was a loyal friend, cherished son, and technology whiz

>I remember one time Anon told me all about thing, it was very helpful with thing

>haha yeah, you could always count on him to help you with things, he always knew everything

They'd play a few inspirational country songs, some contemporary christian, then sing amazing grace and return to daily life. This happens all the time, funeral home staff are expert bullshitters. No one speaks ill of the dead and your family would be fighting amongst each other to share the best stories even if they have to embellish. For some reason everyone loves a dead man. Remember that kid in high school everyone hated up until 1 seconds after they learned he died?

>>35932773

Yea ill give you that, everytime you hear about someone local dying here, especially someone young its always "he/she was so nice/what an angel/gone too soon" when really they were general shitbags and people choose to ignore that because they are dead

>>35929348
You're 19. What are you waiting for then? Do something worthwhile so you won't look back at your life with dread and disappointment.

I came to the same realization when I hit 21, I was a loser khv robot with no real direction just barely passing my classes in uni still feeling the effects of bullying in highschool. I started joining clubs, rushed a fraternity (and became an exec a year later), made loads of friends with people in my faculty, lost my virginity to a virgin and have been dating her for the past 3 years.

Now I'm 25 and I can look back at the last 4 years and be pleased with what I've done with myself. Tons of dumb normie experiences that I can simply describe as the most fun I never want to have again.

Its very possible for a khv to turn his life around, you just have to want to do it. Being a sad bitch that is overly critical of himself and refuses to believe no amount of work will help is the most unhealthy mentality you can possibly have. The sooner you realize that the better, get off this board as soon as you can. I wasted enough time here to know this shit is cancer.

inb4 normie get out reee

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>>35933214
WEW almost fell for this one!! Top quality bait